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We yell at hier have voices, we screaled chorus, and in anguish we hear the nothing that coht through us We try to pound on his car, raise an alar

Cars pass by He is, to the the bridge They see hi into the river They don’t realize it’s his phone

We try to catch it We cannot catch it

He feels the railing under his hands No The railing is under his hands, but he doesn’t really feel it He walks toward the center of the bridge It will take hiet there Maybe three He’s in no rush He watches the dark water undulating far below

He cannot see hisin her bedrooo of her phone

We howl at hi with him Plead with him Yell at him Explain to him Our lives were short, and we never would have wanted to have them be shorter Sometimes perspective comes far too late You cannot trust yourself You think you can, but you can’t Not because you are selfish You cannot live for anyone else’s sake As much as you may want to, you can’t stay alive just because other people want you alive You cannot stay alive for your parents You cannot stay alive for your friends And you have no responsibility to stay alive for them You have no responsibility to anyone but yourself to live

But I’ue No, you are not We knohat it is like to be alive in the present but dead in the future But you are the opposite Your future self is still alive You have a responsibility to your future self, who is soht not even understand yet Because until you die, that future self has as much of a life as you do

We can see that future self Even if you can’t We can see him He is made up not just of your present soul, but of all our souls, all our possibilities, all our deaths He is the opposite of our negation

You are not worthless, we shout to Cooper Your life is not disposable

You think there is no point

You think you will never find a place

You think your pain is the only e else will ever co as that pain

You are certain of this

In this minute--in this, the most important minute of your life--you are certain that you must die

You see no other option

You need to wake up, we cry

Listen to us We fruitlessly demand that you listen to us We shit blood and had our skin lacerated and broken by lesions We had fungus grow in our throats, under our fingernails We lost the ability to see, to speak, to feed ourselves We coughed up pieces of ourselves and felt our blood turn to ma We lost the use of our muscles and our bodies were reduced to collections of skin-encased bones We were rendered unrecognizable, diminished and demolished Our lovers had to watch us die Our friends had to watch as the nurse changed our catheters, had to try to put aside that iround We will never kiss our ain We will never see our fathers We will never feel air in our lungs We will never hear the sound of our voices We will never feel snow or sand or take part in another conversation Everything was taken away from us, and we miss it We miss all of it Even if you cannot feel it now, it is all there for you

Cooper is nearing the center of the bridge Cars continue to pulse past hie shake, can feel the air displaced This he feels Even if he has closed himself into his decision, he is still in the world

The last minute

The last thirty seconds

Our ends were never this precise