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I need to remember that

After school, Rebecca, Ben, and Preston take me for ice cream They want to know more about my Mystery Man--that’s what they call him, and I don’t know that they’re far off

I don’t tell them much They respect that But it’s also clear that their curiosity is going to continue, and I’ to have to either invent some further lies or break up with Mystery Man pretty quick

I am sure to make it home on time for dinner Over chicken and potatoes, I tell my parents that Justin and I are over To h I know it’s the right thing, and even though I know it’sit at the dinner table makes it more real than it’s ever been before I don’t tell my parents about any Mystery Man So the full story is that Justin and I are no longer together

I know they’ve never liked hi to tell rateful for that My father says, "There, there" My mother says she’s sure it’s for the best Then they just sit there and watch ether They change the subject, and ask

I calm myself down as I tell theht with Rebecca and spread it out over two days Lots of movies Lots of talk Lots of ain

I know that I owe A soht, I send an email

A,

Today ard, but I think that’s because it feels like a very aard time It isn’t about you, and it isn’t about love It’s about everything crashing together at once I think you knohat I ain But I don’t think it can be at school I think that’s too much for me Let’s meet after Somewhere with no traces of the rest ofhow, but I want these pieces to fit

Love,

R

After telling so ood to be honest with sooing to be the one true thing in my life, I have to keep it true…even as I wonder if I can make it real