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"I’m sorry," I say I’m not sure what for I’m just sorry

"Do you even care that I had a shit day? Did it even occur to you to ask?" he challenges

"What’s wrong?" I ask now

"This conversation," he says, this ti his locker in the direction of closed "That’s what’s wrong"

It’s not just this conversation I have done a hundred things wrong I have becoht, not about what she’s done

I don’t want to be that kind of person

"Can we talk about this?" I ask quietly

"I’ll see you later" is Justin’s response Which is sos and people start to hurry A few take a ive the about

I disappoint them in the same way I disappoint everyone else

Lunch is tense

I missed Justin between first and second periods--I don’t know if this was deliberate on his side, or ifwas just off When I saw Preston between third and fourth, I asked if he’d ed to contain all the ruht through ossip tends to do I know this is true, but it would be just my luck to be the exception

I want to save the seat next to s over her tray and sits there, I can’t think of how to ask her toweak When Justin co at that taken space as if it’s evidence He sits a couple of seats away

At the very least, I want a hello from him

Our friends notice this They notice it, but they don’t say a word

I should be figuring out a way to save things, to make him feel better about ht: A would never do this to nore er exist Whatever body A is in, A would always find a way to acknowledge me

There’s no way for

"Rhiannon?"

It’s Rebecca’s voice She’s asked hts for a second, return to the table I look over to Justin and see that he’s paying attention to me now He saw me drift off Once upon a ti about him But I don’t see any of that in his face now He lowers his eyes back to his lunch