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I was four days late
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The Internet is a scary thing at 3 am Like a fortuneteller, it tells you what you think you want to hear Or, inI sat there for hours with ns of pregnancy, and how long before you could tell I was pretty sure I could pee on a stick at this point and know for sure But I also liked living in the 50/50 Peeing on the stick could mean 100-percent certainty And I only wanted that if it nant
It’s funny how your body and mind can operate on autopilot I didn’t move from that spot on the floor until the sun rose I didn’t sleep, and I was sliding my feet to the resource center in thesessions with sole wordour sessions I heard muffled sounds that reseetting good at poker faces
Autopilot took me to Sarah’s apart lot, I pushed forward up the steps, knowing she’d likely gone to work, leaving my friend at home alone By the time she answered the door, I must have lost my ability to bluff, because the tears started to co?" Sarah asked, pulling rabbedin front of me with a truly confused look on her face
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"Okay, you’re going to have to speak Is it Reed? Did that assle cheat on you?" she was grabbingfrom her zero-to-sixty, friend-ready-to-defend-youdown After a few seconds, I slumped my shoulders, defeated, and looked up at her
"I’ the side of my mouth to show her how helpless I felt
She just blinked at ister what I’d said Her eyes greider when it settled in "You rip on my shoulders while she questionedher in the eyes without really looking at anything
"Oh…shit," Sarah said, not able to hide her emotions I suppose that’s why I came to her I needed someone to freak out for me, to think quickly on her feet Sienna was the practical one But Sarah, she would go bat-shit crazy with me And this revelation? Well, it called for bat-shit crazy
"We need to go to the drug store, Noles Like now You have to know for sure," she said, pushing her feet into her shoes and ru around her kitchen counter for her purse and keys I didn’t ht in front of s unwilling to move
"I…don’t know if I want to know," I looked at her, ain, I pulled it from my purse and saw a text froht with fa to talk about Someone in the business Call you after, K? Love you
Hisit, ale until I felt the weight of Sarah plop down next to et my phone screen out of my face
"Noles, snap out of it You HAVE to find out You can’t live in between," she said, standing and pulling at ht, but that didn’t stop ht now
The drugstore was only a block or two froet there didn’t take us nearly as long as I would have liked The roere filled with appealing colors I tried to drag us down the nail polish aisle, thinking edof M&Ms would soothe me, but YANK No such luck