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"You are nothing but a fucking cock tease, Ray The only ti fifteen-year-old I thought that us having a kid would tie us together, bring us closer I thought at least then you would let ular basis That’s why I made sure I put holes in the condom we used that day Shocked the hell out of uess that h to carry et ours cut out of her" Tanner had the audacity to wink "But even then, withWouldn’t wear it after either Said you had plans Plans you…" Tanner used his fingers to make quotation marks in the air "Didn’t know if they would include me as more than your best friend and the father of your kid," he said, using a high-pitched voice,his head back and forth, fronswell"
"Fuck you," I spat "Get off of et it! It’s about fucking ti to be so all-American kid next door? Your father even liked me, and that asshole doesn’t like anyone! He wasn’t even fucking pissed when I knocked you up! Do you kno hard that was to fucking pull off?"
"Do your parents knohat a fucking freak you are?" I asked, struggling underneath hi I could use as a weapon
"You know better than that They’re more oblivious to me than the senator is to you"
Tanner pulled the hem of my tank top up over my breasts and I kicked ether and straddled s "But that’s why I had Nikki She lethole of hers since ere twelve And when she started experi the lottery, because in exchange for a taste, the bitch would letCut her, burn her, choke her, tie her up until her wrists fucking bled"
Nikki
I remembered All the times she’d shown up to my house with marks all over her body She’d always made excuses She cut herself on a nail on the houseboat She walked into a door She got bucked off of her cousin’s horse Nikki had always been clumsy She didn’t ever have a boyfriend to be suspicious of And her parents were theto le sign that so was there
I’d failed her
I’d failed her because I was too busy with my perfect little life to even think about the fact that soht about all the tied about Tanner About how attentive he was to reat he ith Sa nervous to commit my life to someone when I was still just a kid myself
"You should thank Nikki, really, she was the only reason I let you have your space The reason why I was the perfect patient boyfriend She took every single thing I wanted to give to you But that fucking slut had to go and fuck it all up When I dragged you into that alley, she had to go call for help" Tanner rolled his eyes "And when they didn’t find your body, and she stopped co back for dope, I knew you were alive and that cunt ith you That the two of you were hiding froain he clasped his hands aroundyet another round of his sick choking gaht up to Nikki, in that shitty motel room, and when she wouldn’t tell me where you were…" Tanner looked off to the side, lost in a rew angrier His neck bursting with thick pulsing veins He refocused his attention onharder, until I was no longer able to draw in a breath Tanner pressed his lips against my ear "…I killed the whore" He released asped for air as ly slow pace as I tried to fill h air to say it Tanner killed Nikki She didn’t overdose by accident She didn’t overdose on purpose My father didn’t kill her No, the boy next door killed her
My boy next door
"I think I like it when you’re afraid of rabbederection pressing against his shorts "Maybe I rong all this ti it up the ass," Tanner said, grabbing a hold ofhis nails into the tender flesh I tried not to react I tried not to screa that wouldn’t get me any results