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It’s that tiht that I know Jax or Blaine’s text will be waiting forthey tell ood and safe

That’s all I asked fro else at the moment, and I know that Jax and Blaine are the only two that truly understand how hout the day gets deleted without even a second thought, because I know if I allow es fro her doith ht and figure out a way todown the bottle, I rub my hands down my face and release a deep breath "I need to know that what I’, Olivia I need to know that these feelings I have inside are true I need a sign from you Please"

I shakethat things didn’t have to be this way I hate it here and I hate that I can’t be with her It makes me feel less alive more andthat Olivia understands "I love her so fucking much, but I’m scared I don’t want to hurt her Can you tellfor the hundredth ti will be okay

That I soain

Five Months Later

"KYLIE! WHERE ARE YOU, GIGGLES?" I yell, while opening up the lower cabinets in the kitchen and pretending to look inside "Hood at disappearing! Must befro and look everywhere else except the place I know she is hiding

She laughs again as I walk over to the table and shake my head, as if I’m disappointed that I can’t find her

"Oh ical skittles today" I reach for her favorite pink plastic bowl "I guess I will just have to eat this , she runs out fro it in her little ar and pick her up, hugging her tightly as tears foret el, and there’s no better feeling in the world than to hear her call me mommy

My heart hurt the first few tiuilty There was an ache in my chest that made me feel for Olivia and hurt for her She should be the one being calledaround and laughing and holding her at night while she falls sleep Not me, but her and Royal They were supposed to be a fairl had it all taken from her It kills me, but makes me happy that I can be here for her now

I set Kylie down in her highchair and turn and wipe the tears away as they continue to fall down my face and wet the top ofhe’s gone

I tryout on with his little angel here, but as hard as I try, I can’t force myself to stop Hehis beautiful little girl in one by that I haven’t sent him a text to let him know that I need hihter, but I refuse to tell hih too much already I can’t do that to him over a phone call

That’s exactly why I haven’t told Jax and Blaine the truth yet As far as they know, Kylie is just a little girl that I adopted and fell in love with She’s been with le day with her is special