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"It hurt so bad" She whispered the truth "I kneanted it to hurt He ave hi that, I couldn’t stop crying I couldn’t stop fighting him He made me feel weak and helpless He made me feel filthy, and unworthy I didn’t want anyone to know, but I knew I kne they touched s they said"

A sob escaped Ehtened around hers

"Then he put that needle inand when he pushed that plunger and e and painful I couldn’t quit screahed, and he took my blood He just sank his teeth into o to that place, Aet there Not even when he forced me to drink his blood" She whispered the last admission because it shamed her It sickened her That black, acid blood with the parasites wiggling on her tongue and down her throat

"Then he made me drink more blood from a cup There was soht to lick it off He did Vadim He waved his hand and none of them could move, and he licked it off me"

Her body shuddered She knew tears ran down her face She looked at A back at her They stared at each other, a shared horror in their eyes

"You’re the only one I can tell the entire awful thing to," Emeline said "You’re the only one ould understand what I felt What I still feel"

"Like you can never be good again," A and then he ht for you and then he fought for ain "And Liv"

"You didn’t hurt Liv or Dragoed, it wasn’t you, it was Vadim Understand that, A a baby and there were parasites in me…"

"Bella How could he make me do that? How could I have followed his instructions?"

"Vampires can take our will Vadionificent He actually used that word – nificent"

"He did?" Amelia’s voice said she didn’t believe it

"He did," Emeline assured "I know it’s difficult to face others, but, honey, it’s our own fear and guilt, not what they feel about us It’s what he planted in our uilt He doesn’t want us to have any kind of life because that means he loses I want him to lose You have so many people who love you They want you to be with them, not lost in a world with none of theo to escape Vadihter"

"I’ht in the eye

She looked confused "No You’re a I want to be like you, Emeline You’re beautiful and brave"

"He did the same to me that he did to you," Emeline pointed out "If I aomir said we’re alike, and he should know"