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Charlie gave ross, huh?" He then proceeded to rub as much of his perspiration on me as possible It really shouldnʼt have been the sort of thing that qualified as a turn-on, but there was a part of me that didnʼt see les

Charlie quit his assault, but stayed perched above reen of his eyes "Tell ienically superior "

He leaned in closer, which I would have thought irowled at me How did I ever think that noise was a hundred percent hu off his body If I didnʼt know that it was the night before a full ry at these obvious signs of his dual nature, of the truth that had been hidden from me Perhaps I was, but that eer one

I lay there, staring up at a face I had knohole life, and all I could think of was howI had wanted him I could feel every spot that our bodies connected - his knees on either side of entle pressure of his right hip against my left I was frozen in place, unable to speak, ed The pupils dilated as playfulness was erased by so more intense

"And you kno I feel about her"

My chin reflexively tilted up The world had narrowed down to the space between Charlieʼs lips and mine I wondered how they would feel, how they would taste They were a bit fuller Alexʼs lips Would that make a difference?

Alex

Just like that, thefor playful, but fro I failed miserably "I need to hit the showers and head hoe control "Mo?

I ith Alex Alex, who, against all odds, loved ht up in the ain

And who kno Charlie would have reacted if I followed through? "And you kno I feel about her" That could haveIt could have been, "I feel like sheʼs the sister I never had," or "I feel like sheʼs kind of pathetic and worthy of my sympathy" Why did I autos for me? It was ridiculous

But there was that moment when he had looked at me like he wantedto think about that

Alex I was going to think about Alex - the curve of his s to think about all the ways I didnʼt deserve hily long list

The nextI stumbled my way to the kitchen in dire need of coffee Most of the tiar,I put in, it still tasted bitter and repulsive But I was dragging froht of restless sleep The Alex at the lake dreaular basis, had featured a dark and violent storainst ely I was surprised to find my face and arh, was knowing that this time it was all my fault I was the one who caused the stor Alex, still stuck on the opposite shore, to suffer

I didnʼt need Dr Phil to tell uilt for what almost happened with Charlie

I had a lot of time to think about the whole situation between the hours of three and five thatsince sleep eludedthat way towards Charlie If I could just have nors towards hih to realize that wasnʼt happening