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I don’t kno long I stood there going over everything in my head If I had absorbed Dante’s ed to him, too?

Dr Newhaus had said that Wanderlust was about absorbing me the now, not in the past Then again, ere soulworked differently with us

"My sis--" I’d said to the nurse in my vision of the hospital, just before I’d corrected myself to say brother Dante had had a sister And the ceht after my vision; he’d known exactly where the Monitor section on the map was, and he’d noticed the headstone just before I tripped over it

I thought back to the night before my birthday, when I had h the waters of Lake Erie? "You?" she’d said Could she have been talking about Dante? In the vision, I’d had long hair Dante did, too Was it possible that he’d taken her shovel and then killed her?

Unable to controlhim in my visions, but he couldn’t have killed anyone I had to believe that he would never hurt anyone He’d told me himself that he wouldn’t, that he wouldn’t hurt e was dead What explanation could he possibly have?

Outside, the day faded to night, and tiny snowflakes floated in through the openon a cool, swirling breeze Standing up, I lowered the pane and went to splash my face ater But when I turned the knob of the bathrooain

"Go away," Cleh this tiround whispering or giggling

She blew her nose Quietly, I pressed

"I can hear you," she yelled suddenly "Go away"

Stunned, I fell back And without thinking, I slipped onready to leave I didn’t care where

When I opened the door froht in front of me, his arm raised as if he were about to knock

"Noah," I said, ju here?"

He looked red and flustered, his brow gathered into a tiny wrinkle When he saw me, his face softened "I just wanted to see you"

I scratched my head, confused Behind me I could hear Clementine turn the faucet on in the bathroo a hint of panic as he surveyed my coat and scarf

"I--I’h to for for a walk"

"Can I co I needed was for Cle to me "Okay"

"Okay"

We walked in silence, both lost in our own thoughts as the traffic lights changed soundlessly in front of us As aited on the curb for a car to pass, Noah turned to ood"

His words took a moment to sink in "I’m so sorry" I didn’t knohat else to say

"Thanks"

He didn’t offer anything ht Without any destination we meandered down the streets, past sex shops and head shops, tattoo parlors and peep shows The s of the storefronts were s neon

As we passed under the awning of an all-night café, I stopped Through the glass I spotted so a tan suit coat that looked incredibly fay professor was sitting alone at a table, staring down at a plate of food, deep in thought

It was a smoky French bistro, the kind that served cheap wine A television was on, tuned to a hockey game There were barely any people inside, save for two oldera waitress