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"He’s doing better, though?" I asked
"Getting stronger every day We’re hoping he can cooodyour heart split into three pieces, walking around vulnerable outside my body? Some days it’s torture There are no words to describe how frightening, wonderful, awful, and exhausting it is Worrying seems like second nature It’s a part of me because I love the bad happened to the, and I find myself apathetic because if I think about it too much, I’ll break down People say it’s every parent’s worst nighthtmares"
"Motherhood soundslovely," I said
"You’ll see," Abby said, wiping her wet cheeks
I wrinkled my nose "I’ just said goodbye to someone on the phone He tapped the display and dropped the sleek tech into his suit pocket "NICU says he just had lunch He’s an animalHey, Cami"
"Hey," I said
"Where’s Trent?" he asked
"I think I saw hiht to Dad," Travis said, sitting doith us He picked at a hangnail on his thumb "He’s always been a daddy’s boy"
"Don’t pretend you aren’t That you all aren’t," Abby smirked
"Not Tho anythingnoise she ht make to her children "It will be over soon," she whispered
I sunk back intotired, ested Trenton had placed tissues and trash cans in every roo sure to eularly I blewa horrid sound, and tossed it into the can next tothe box of Kleenex to my waist We all had different currency on different days In an airport, I saw people hunting for a chair close to outlets or choosing to sit on the floor Today, people congregated next to the booze or the tissues
I held onto the thin cardboard box like a lifeline It was the only thing to hold Trenton was in the living roo Jim, and I was at odds with uess I had, too, but it was inevitable We would choose when it ca, except Ellie Peace-and-Love She rely neutral, while Falyn was pissed at Trenton, as was Abby Trenton and Shepley were angry with Travis Even though everyone was civil during the funeral, I couldn’t help but wonder ould go down afterward I planned a quick escape so Trenton wouldn’t say or do anything else he’d regret later
"It’s not going to be over," I one"
Abby craned her neck at ue
"He doesn’t feel gone," I said, feeling one?"
Abby glanced around before she spoke "Ca to tell you this once Whatever you’re doing, stop If anyone heard you … it could be very upsetting to a lot of people"