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It’s his hands--not his mouth that I want I want his touch I crave it

My clit pulses against ers in blissful aftershocks I blinksince I’ve been able to fantasize about a e of string cheese and half a bottle of vodka

I take one of the cheeses, leaving the refrigerator door open for light as I perch on the counter I tear the plastic wrapper open slowly Take a bite and wash it doith a large gulp of alcohol

So by ht, and conteo on each day How haven’t I given up? Why do I bother to live when this is all I have to offer?

I haven’t been hoht to voicemail

I’ve cut off all contact with the few friends I had left after the school divided over the rape Soive a shit either way

I work from home, when I actually have work to do

And I can’t have a real relationship with a et off

I’m pretty sure the only one ould be affected if I ceased to exist isis, I don’t have the strength to end my life I have no desire to slit my wrists or OD on pills I’m too tired Too lazy If I could just fade into nonexistence, that’d be perfect

I sn

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Link

I was a nervous wreck the first tihter, but she was also the er than e difference didn’t matter because she was a hell of a lotat different schools justher that much sweeter

As I put the phone to my ear that first time, I was so worried she wouldn’t remember who I was But Livie put all et her words for as long as I live "It’s about ti to worry that you stumbled into The Lost Woods"

It took me all of about three stunned seconds to realize she made a Zelda reference, which was cool as shit And then a couple more to understand she did so because of my name By the time my silence hit an uncomfortable level, I think I had fallen in love with her An aard, teenage love, but it was love all the same

Not only did she remember my name, but she waited for ael, sent to uys have a shit-ton of confidence and always kno to talk to them

We don’t

At least, I didn’t

Not when it came to Livie She was, hands down, the coolest fe idiot ItWe had our first date that weekend--Batman at the local theater We shared a Coke and held hands After that ere inseparable To this day, I don’t kno I got so lucky Not just for the tiuys in the world She was otten easier

I sit behind ly at the stack of papers in front of me Some are bills Some are client info that needs to be filed So out

I don’t have the mental capacity to deal with this today Or any day, for thatonly

Vengeance

I roll away froie and Joe are in the ring, sparring for fun before we open for the day I slap , I need a secretary," I say "Know anybody that uard, lowering his ar the asshole that he is, takes full advantage of the distraction He effectively nails Joe with a right hook, throwing the poor guy off balance It’s a total dick ie claps his gloved hand down on Joe’s shoulder, chuckling around his uard "They teach that in the Marines?"

Joe spits his un"

Augie glances over his shoulder at"Never piss off a Marine"

"Noted," I reply

"IIt takesto my secretary question

"Good Get her in here today I need this shit sorted" I nod to the pile "I’ll pay twelve an hour"

"Pay ie says

"Can’t," I say as I begin backing toward the exit "I have so to need you to pick upthrough the door

"What? Where you going, ie calls "You’ve been here ten minutes"

"Errands"

I find ency I don’t knohy I keep coive me an opportunity to kill him