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Love It turns you into a

Why the hell does everybody insist love is a cure-all? All you need is love? That and a straightjacket Or ht psychotic meds

I can handle this shit when it coive the best damn advice you’ve ever heard Like Oprah, Gandhi, and Dr Phil all rolled into one But when it happens tohelpless

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I stop by Annie’s dorm room after work I usually don’t do this because one: I typically sreasy, and my hair is melded toher I’h I just saw her a few hours ago at lunch, it’s like this physical need--an addiction And I need to feed ht All I want is one quick glance and I’ll be happy

Thethat happened with Loden, this door should be kept locked I let ers throughto makethat has e to either kick down the door or vorunt followed by a soft fe my hand over s on htmare

What the fuck?

I turn around and head for the door as fast as I can because I have no right to be pissed--Annie’s not mine--but I can’t seem to comprehend this at the uy out the God Damned Window

And then I want to throw up because souy that isn’t ainst the elevator button It never bothered me this much when she ith Loden I think because I never expected it to truly last But this… I didn’t know she was seeing anybody How the hell didn’t I know that?

Why the hell didn’t she tell me?

I deserve that much Don’t I? She kno I feel I’ve made myself pretty da on her Obviously she doesn’t want to wait She wants someone else That’s not unusual She’s alanted soht shit was changing between us

Fuck

I’ly as I did, but I never realized there was nothing there

I’ about love and shit, and she’s over there--nope I can’t even think it

I jab the elevator button repeatedly I want out of here now I can’t do this any at her, touching her… Not now Not knowing…

The doors slide open and I step inside, willing the elevator to hurry the hell up With all the technology in the world, they can’t make a faster elevator for quick escapes? I’d invest everything I own right now to oes by I want to punch the wall No I want to punch whoever is in Annie’s room with her

No I want to punchthere was soh for Annie I know it She knows it That guy--the lucky bastard finding bliss in her bed--who’s probably ser than I can pay attention--he knows it

He’s probably perfect for her in every way

He sure as hell see her happy She sounded more than happy

Fuck

It shouldn’t hurt this hthe car This is bullshit It shouldn’t bother me this badly What and who Annie does is her own personal business It has nothing to do with me

And maybe that’s why it hurts Because I want it to have everything to do with me

Only me

Screw this love shit

I’ disease

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