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2 Everybody needs someone in their life they can rely on Try to be that person

3 Take a chance

4 Love whole-heartedly (Unless in the presence of Park Reed--in which case, guard your heart at all cost)

5 Make it your goal to make someone smile daily

6 Always expect more of yourself today than you did yesterday

7 Noin the goodness of others

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Lucy

"Whatchya watching?" Bree asks, plopping down on the couch I look up at her from my position on the floor as I stretch

"I’rabfor a run"

Bree crinkles her nose and pops a chip in her htly as I stand to finishplans that consist of this couch, this TV, and this bag of chips Who ahten up and restan eye roll "And that would be what?"

"To not run unless I’ chased"

"If you ran, you’d have a better chance of getting away if you were ever chased," I point out

"No See I’ you do, if you were ever chased you’d be too tired to get away My way is so much better And fun And…"

"Lazy?"

"Exactly" She s h "You are hopeless"

"It’s not my fault My parentstold I’ht the grin begging to be released "Pathetic"

"Your hter," I call over rab her laptop off the desk in her roo it out to her just like she kneould

"Thank you Your s for ether and bats her dark lashes "Like getting me a can of Coke…?"

I roll s, B And they can take you anywhere you want to go"

"Can they take me to Jensen Ackles’ house?" she yells "Because that’s the only place I want to go right now"

I laugh as I let the door close behindmy ear buds into place, I set up my playlist, and skip down the stairs I pause near Park and Jessie’s door for just a second before continuing on

I haven’t seen Park since he’s coht in the hospital I don’t kno I feel about that Or hio see him He could have died and I haven’t bothered to even sostupid values in y day

What if he’s in too much pain to take care of himself?

No If he was that bad, Jessie would tellto do with Park Maybe he would keep it fro care of Park himself And Guy’s been there a lot

Park doesn’t need me

And I shouldn’t want him to

But I miss him I wonder if he misses me

He doesn’t miss me He made it perfectly obvious that I’m easily replaced Just like Jared did

I speed my pace I need to fall into the run, let it absorbthe iPod out of my pocket, I turn the volume up loud I don’t usually do this I typically keep it low so I can hear traffic or soht now

Sweat trails down e, beads on my forehead It’s too hot to run This late in the afternoon is the worst ti in the apart he’s just a floor below irl--a girl with a boyfriend--the sa sex with me? Why would he do that? If he didn’t want to be with ht he cared aboutto do his best to not hurt me He didn’t even make it twenty-four hours As soon as Hope showed up he lost it

What did I do wrong? What could I have done differently?

No This is notThis isn’t on Hope either This is all Park’s fault He lied to me I was honest with hiainstto be different with me

That’s just what he wanted e and he conquered me End of story

But then why? Why all the talk about belonging to his

It doesn’t matter None of it matters now

I slow to a stop and holdand I feel nauseated

I should just go see hi better then I’ll feel better I can be the bigger person

I can’t believe how close he came--

What if I lost him?

No He was never mine to lose He ended this the o sleep with sorowl as I pant, still trying to get a good breath Park Reed is not worth all this toret hi