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I couldn’t be anywhere near Hazel I wouldn’t have the self-control She’d already lost her daughter I didn’t want to steal her life

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I had no control left I was a e ony Torture I couldn’t live in a body whilemyself down the stairs onto the floor of Obsidian, I searched the early arrivals

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Go back You’ve accepted who you are Go back Go ho to Mother Russia Returning to the place where : turnI’d fought so hard for was a co joke

Ghosts didn’t have fa pain?

My vision went hazy I couldn’t do it any with sharabbed a pen froony washed through ranted a sht of rationality in the chaotic storm of confusion

I knehat I had to do

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Zel owned me more than anyone, and I wouldn’t survive without her Clara had gone Hazel was all I had left I’d kept secrets fro secrets

I wasn’t worthy I wasn’t safe

But I could change all that

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My heart died inher She would need me She deserved a shoulder to cry on and another person to share the burden of grief But I couldn’t Not yet Not while I existed on the border of Ghost and sanity I couldn’t hug her I couldn’t console her pain

The uard down, I would snap her neck

I couldn’t give Zel what she needed I wasn’t whole

And I er turned outward, focusing on the handlers who’d fucked upthrobbing in ht I needed to kill And now I hadnor

The fucking cure was insidetothem

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"Fuck this" I let down allwith open arms I s I allowed rammed to do

I went Ghost

And I lost myself

Mother Russia

The Iron Fist of a past I couldn’t out run Bleak and barren and hoot here I bought every ticket in the first class cabin to ensure no one touched me I locked myself into the freakish persona of an assassin and no one--not even the air hostesses came near me

The moment I landed, I stole a 4WD to drive into the snoilderness I said goodbye to no one I just disappeared

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The conditioning throbbed harder and harder, recognising its place of origin I was returning toecstatic to es apart from some cash, passport, and my memories, but that’s all I needed The establish, and I would return with nothing

And then I’d ain

I was ready to go rogue and dance in blood The ice was back inlike a Siberian winter I’d embraced who I truly ho they made me become

"You’re not a bad man You can’t be a bad man because I love you and well, I couldn’t love a bad man" Clara’s voice whipped around me with the artic wind

I shook rief threatened to overshadow the rage I couldn’t let myself mourn Not yet Not when I had soin a deep breath, I deliberately pushed Clara frohts

I stood on the perimeter of the establish jagged lightning, illu the compound in flashes of white

My skin crawled beneath my black attire Home Hell My place of birth fro in the dead of night, raining over the landscape and hiding a id, ruthless, uninhabitable

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Australia, Hazel, Clara,--all of it seemed like a dream I felt as if I’d never left this terrible wasteland and everything inall I wanted to do was run far, far away and never look back I didn’t want to be here I wanted to be fucking free from all of this

My ive you freedonoring the howling wind and jagged teeth of frost, I prepared for battle I would win tonight I would take back as , Fox Got to beat that compassion out of you"

The flashback caoyle e I’d erected at home

"You’re no one to anyone anymore You’re an orphan, a drifter, an unknown We are now your faet that"