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The foyer held most of my creations Birds and horses and every creature I’d ever met in the Siberian forests of Mother Russia It was a zoo ht, the thing I h they’d never draw air

The contract I’d signed when my blindness had been discovered roared back to mind

There are only tays an operative may leave the Establishent promises to never speak of said Establishment to anyone at any time for any reason They solemnly swear to never talk about missions, details, or history They must have their affairs in order and s the last instruction of duty

Sharing of secrets is not permitted and the Establishment will not hesitate to carry out orders to erase both ex-operative and person who knows intie

The operative has exactly five weeks from removal to s his final task

If this is disobeyed, the Establishate, and kill

We are alatching

Invincible I schned it I wanted out I needed out Every day, I lost more and more of my vision until I relied on a cane to move around I already lived in hell, but now I lived in complete and utter darkness I hated every ed for freedoht until I was useless to thened it

I learned to read braille

I left and never looked back

For two years, I lived a life adrift from others I opened Obsidian and hired Oscar to oversee it Using an a new life I worked during the witching hours and slept while the sun protectedmy skin in warmth and safety my eyes couldn’t see

And slowly, my vision ca ardless of the fact that I was supposed to putI ever wanted apart fro in another huht I didn’t want it--that I was above such frivolous desires But I wasn’t

I wanted Zel like I wanted ive up ain if it meant I could kiss her and wrap ain

I would undergo any operation or therapy if it meant I could just be noravein return, and I was sick of taking Sick of being a

I wanted to be a man for her To shelter her, nurture her…learn to love her

You’re a fucking idiot

I’d just proved hoistful and fanciful such dreams were I took Zel by force all because she touched ht I didn’t I didn’t deserve anything round

The switch inside had flicked on and drowned out everything else I was inflicted--therefore I had to inflict Sih the house, I didn’t knohere I would go I doubted Poison Oaks would indulge my needs so soon I’d have to resort to ain

The anticipation of a fist toand not bashon the side table

Wrenching open the door, I sucked in the early afternoon air Gulping in freshness, I tilted my head up to the sun

The sun

Shit No clubs would be open to fight at this tio to purge my body and punish myself I needed a physical release, not just a few lines of a razor blade Even the tools in ered for

Where could I go to find redeain as I stalked around the side of the house toward the garage and my black Porsche

Her beautifully fir hair and heart shaped face The way she looked at ht

Her eyes screamed the truth: I was diabolic Not fit to be around others And definitely not worthy of her

I’d never forgivemurderously into her like she was an enelare, I stopped short

Shit, I hated what I’d done so aze I’d contaminated myself with horrendous actions toward a wodom

I needed to leave that instant I didn’t want to watch her go I’d severed the connection between us, and there was nothing but the cold-hearted

It was over

I’d wanted to know so h all my bullshit and knew so much more about me than I did about her The secrets she kept hidden were so deep inside I had no chance of deciphering the she did was grief