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But not once did I see his legs again, or his chest or back or ar hisI could touch and taste
The longer he remained elusive, the more my mind ith what he kept hidden What if he was so badly rieving for a little boy who’d never had a hand laid on hi even ht--after I ed between us He accepted reed to start from scratch
We never discussed the contract--we didn’t need to As far as I was concerned, the agree deeper than a piece of paper Fox would still pay hter, but we’d evolved past exchanging one commodity for another
We becae his bandages to inspect the stitches in his leg, but he flatly denied me andpain
As strange as it seemed, we understood each other and time moved forward Fox kneouldn’t put up with his violence, and I kneouldn’t tolerate being touched
It was a whole neorld full of wanting and fearing
During the day, I stayed with Fox We explored his house, or went for walks in the seardens around his property He showed me how to help with the paperwork of Obsidian andreceipts, sending out estions on how to i possessive of his co to advice, and softly answering questions about the legal aspects of his club
Ourthe foundation for a topsy-turvy friendship that seethed with chemistry and need, but was never acted upon
Fox opened his life to me--every avenue of his business, every account and password on his co about his past
The shs echoed with loneliness My heart screaive hi hi him true happiness
But it didn’t see me as I bent over his books or walked silently by his side His smoky eyes were so dae was loud and clear
Why are you still here?
Why waste your ties I also ignoredto the soft breathing of Clara, I rifled through iven him for the bruises and terrible fear he’d instilled inpain and not-so-perfect choices, I’d never been so petrified before The thoughts running through ers crushed my windpipe had been full of Clara She’d never knofor her
But then, thankfulness layered --I wouldn’t have to see her wither and beg for help I couldn’t give
Fox made me assess every inch of my life and I hated hiet over what he’d done, but at the saetic ht he took me, but the bruises around his eye and cheek bone had faded to a et used to his joints clicking or his back creaking whenever hefor a period of time He sounded like an old tin solider badly in need of soht, I would leave Fox and catch a taxi froiven me the one hundred thousand cash he promised, and I was able to afford another trial inhaler for Clara He tried to drive me, but I flat-out refused While I admitted I had a fondness for hi for him physically, I was still afraid of what he was capable of He was an undetonated hand-grenade, and I had no intention of letting him near Clara He had his secrets, and I had mine That was the way it had to be
Clara would launch her warether, watch television, do her hole and talk in the dark until she fell asleep I hoarded thoseeacheach recollection would torture , I ith the hope that doctors had diagnosed wrong Clara seeht and mind inquisitive
At ten am every day I would return to Fox and clio back to sleep, leaving il until midday when he woke
For a week, I balanced an to think it could work
But of course, life liked to provethe folders tighter againston ordering hters Fox had disappeared an hour ago, saying he’d be back
I didn’t expect hiainst the black walls of his office--completely unnoticeable until he moved
His lips twitched but he didn’t fully so and be happy
If he kne to, of course
"Sorry I aiting for you" Hethe floor with Oscar taking note of the dwindling supplies that we needed
He’d asked for more hookers, and I slapped him playfully As much as I didn’t want to adrabbed my boob, but beneath the brash exterior lurked a fun-sos of attraction in my stomach
He was so different to Fox Sun to dark Happy to brooding But I wouldn’t stray--not that I had any relationship obligations to Fox apart frorown froht about our tiether just for a month I would stay until Fox smiled with his soul I would stay until he could ain?
I’d leave and never look back I had feelings for him but I didn’t have a death wish