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"You should have died," Dr Murray stated slowly I knew asto be honest with you, and I’, son"

Nobody had called o that to hear that ter home A tear pooled at the corner of my eye and slid down before I could stop it

"You have a long road ahead of you," Dr Murray said, "I’vewith therapy The ood idea"

I respected hiet ith… emotion, but I seriously lost control when he said, "You’re better than this, son"

Because I was better than this I kneas

I just needed to hear it

He sat on the bed and sighed "You were e, son I need you to believe that I need you to ith ether Can you do that?"

Slowly, using strength I knew I didn’t have, I lifted reeaveto be fine, baby I’uys for aaway some of that equipment hooked up to him"

I s scolded would actually feel so good

"What are you srinned

I moved my head frohed behind Nat and wrapped his ar it’s the first time an adult has scolded him in years"

My sether and Nat walked over to me and kissed my forehead Her lips arrabbed ht here Always"

‘I love you too’ That’s what I would have said if I could ‘I love you too and I’m sorry I’m sorry that I didn’t love you the way you deserve to be loved’

‘I’ive it, when you don’t even knohat it is I didn’t love myself, I didn’t accept myself; I blamed myself And until I was done with all that? I couldn’t have loved her

Not the way Alec loved her

Nat walked out of the roo me alone with Alec I stared at him He stared at me I stared at him some ain I will bring you back to life, only to kill you all over again, okay?"

I nodded