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I popped two pills

And made my way out the door to the SUV Nat was already in her seat waiting

"Hey Nat," I called, getting into the car Alec followed behindtense I would have cracked a joke had I not been so hurt

"Hey, Demetri" Nat’s voice quivered

"Listen--" I turned around while Alec drove the car out of the driveway "I’ize and she’s surprised? Was I that big of an ass?

I shrugged it off "I’etting worse by the minute But what the hell else could I say? I’m sorry I fell in love with you? I’m sorry I want you so bad it hurts? I’m sorry you love my brother more? Or how about this I’ drugs right this minute -- for you I wouldn’t be able to do it Yeah,

Suffocation by aardness was seriously taking place in that SUV -- by the time Alec parked, I was ready to juull

I jerked open the car door andlot Ah yes, and this was always my favorite part

The stares

You knohat sucks about being famous?

Everyone wants to be your friend, everyone wants to freaking be you, they want your life, they want your secrets, they want your da shitty -- they hate you, they loathe you, they think they have soht to talk about you as if you aren’t a real person So yeah, it sucked that people hispering abouton Nat, but what sucked ht to even talk about it right in front of s any less important than someone else’s?

That’s what mere mortals didn’t understand about celebrities… we aren’t different We still wear pants I still shit et rejected, I still eat cereal and drink milk But none of that matters, because once you fall froame

So you may as well make the fall fun -- on the way down

By the time lunch rolled around, people were in a frenzy that I hadn’t sat next to Alec and Nat, like I was pissed or so them space for shit’s sake!

Alec didn’t deserve it; neither did Nat So in a stroke of brilliance, I grabbed a chick sitting next to me and licked her face

Hey, I never clai, however, worked All the attention that was once on Alec and Nat was now on hit in the only way I kne

Be a whore