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"I’e ainst ether in a way that really, really, s sexual

I closed ain, it was to tell her that this thing, whatever we had, couldn’t ever be real It had to end It was too hard being close to her Holy shit I was going to officially de-friend a person

"Nat, we should, uo for a run" Yeah That’s what I ith

"Okay"

Neither of us aze to my lips

She didn’t stop me Not when I leaned closer to her, not when my head descended, not when ainst the mattress and not when my mouth found her lips -- and lost all control Nat reached around rindshe had on and rip it to shreds starting with that daue met mine

With a groan, I pinned her hands harder against the bed, and threwher so coue pushed deeper into herHer body arched up to meet mine as I tried to retreat There was no way out of it I wasn’t in control of anything anyasped for air, ourapart for ain, bruising the theained control Maybe it was there all the tinore it I sucked her lower lip, allowing myself one last taste, and pulled away "I’ her was al her because now I could see her I could see her perfect little body beneath mine, her hair splashed across the white pillows

"Why are you always apologizing after kissing hed bitterly "Because I shouldn’t be kissing you, Nat"

"But I thought you liked ainst the headboard "I don’t just like you, Nat But it doesn’t matter"

"Why?"

"He loves you, Nat"

"I…" Her eyes darted from my face down to her feet "I care for Demetri, you know I do"

I sed and looked away I didn’t kno to find the right words Would normal words even work in this situation? How could I describe to her how I felt? Without betrayingher in the process?

"I just care about you too," she whispered

"Damn it! Do you have any idea how screwed up this is, Nat?" Her shoulders sluain" I swore "I proain"

"What do you mean? Why are you so cryptic?"

I bit h "I would lose much ardless of my actions around you, I still truly desire to be your friend"