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He pulls me close and buries his face in , holding oes to theand I aeous city beneath us Of the feeling of sanctuary I’ve found here and nowhere else, if only for a short while
Slowly, Chris slides round and offersa wave of shyness Yes indeed, I’rabs the robe and pulls it aroundI think you’ll like," he says "Overnight, if you can?"
Overnight with Chris? The idea thrillsEnjoy it while I can Don’t get attached Don’t fall for him "Where?" I ask
"Is that a yes?"
I nod "Yes"
"Then it’s a surprise but you’ll like it, I pro to do everything I want to do, we have to get going"
"I have to go hoet clothes I don’t even have a shirt to wear out of here"
"You can use my shower, and you leave clothes to me"
"Chris-"
He picksyou to the shower Me Tarzan You Jane Do as I say"
I laugh at his silliness, and think that he’s the contradiction All rough, tough entle bear at the same time
We pass the coffee table "Wait! I need rab it I snatch it "My skirt-"
"I’ll get you clothes," he says, charging up the steps fro room to the foyer by the elevator and down another hallway I hadn’t even noticed, and then up a winding set of stairs that ends in his bedroom, which is spectacular A massive black bed on a pedestal with an incredible view I only get to see in passing before I am deposited on the white marble floor of a bathroo you inside because if I join you, on’t leave anytime soon"
I open my mouth to object but it’s too late He kisses me quick and hard on the mouth and then steps out of the room and shuts the door behind him I am alone in Chris Merit’s bathroom and all I can do is smile
Chapter Twenty-One
I use Chris’s soap and shampoo; it has a sandalwood musky smell that reminds es of the things we’ve done together, the conversations we’ve shared, pour through me as the hot water pours over me Chris confuses me on every possible level Or maybe I’m confused anyway Until this past week, I’d convinced ured out Did I letbehind? Part of me says no I escaped with my own identity I stood up for what I believed in My love of art had been like my mother’s, a frivolous hobby, not a career My role would have been like my mother’s, that of servitude to my father, and in rimly says that I ran rather than stood up to my father and demanded he accept who and what I am, not who he wanted me to be I’d always hoped my mother would stand up for herself, and what had I done? I’d siht No wonder I wanted to hit the man He’d made me see the bitter, hard truth of my actions He’d made me wish I’d been braver, et back Still, I don’t want to see my father I don’t want his damn money I can’t be certain I’d have stayed in ht forWasn’t that the entire reason I left? To be me? I inhale and let it out Me I don’t know myself
My stomach is officially in knots and I turn off the water I did run I can’t deny it Damn it to Hell, I’m furious with myself But I can create my own life and success now that I’ve decided to try Resolve for while…until Chris I a this weekend with Chris Chris is lass doors, I wrap myself in a fluffy white towel I’d found in a cabinet and wish forup a shirt for me, but I’m sure he knows I need more for the weekend We’ll have to make time to stop by my place, and the idea bothers me My place My little hole in the wall the size of Chris’s bedroom and bathroo to the vanityon the shiny white tiled counter Hair products are crucial though and I pull open the spacious medicine chest to hunt some down Chris’s electric shaver, and various toiletries, including cologne and lotion are inside No hair products He has such great hair, and it’s as long as his chin, so it el or some kind or product
I start to close the cabinet, and hesitate, picking up the cologne, and spraying it in the air, drawing in the fa in ways I’ve never experienced before If you think the guy trying to protect you instead of walk all over you is the one trying to run your life, you’re just as fked up as I am Ah yes, I think Exactly I a to happen to each other; he’s a drug, as Rebecca had called the man in the journal, I’le" style="display:block" data-ad-client="ca-pub-7451196230453695" data-ad-slot="9930101810" data-ad-format="auto" data-full-width-responsive="true">