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At four, I woke but thought I was still drea Holmes was perched at the end of my bed Actually, she was perched on top of ht have been sexy, except she earing a giant T-shirt that read CHEMISTRY IS FOR LOVERS, so it was insane, and her face looked like she’d been crying, so it was terrifying

Co with Holh my head 28: If you’re upset, Holmes is the last person you should ask tofeelings 29: If Holmes is upset, hide all firearms and install a new lock on your door I swore and scrabbled to push raveyard tone "Just shut up, will you, and listen to me for a minute"

But I was too wound up to do that "Oh, are we talking now? Because I thought ere just going to let your crazy family eviscerate us at the dinner table and then abandon each other there without saying a word Or et another round of the silent treatment--"

"Watson--"

"Will you just stop with the theatrics? They’re not fun anyoddamn century My name is Jamie, and I don’t need you to act like we’re part of some story, I just need you to act like you like me Do you even like"Or am I just somesome prop for the life you wish you had? Because I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but we’re back in real life now Lucien Moriarty’s in Thailand, Bryony Downs is in a black box so to eat breakfast with your batshit ment of reality"

She raised an eyebrow "Actually, the housekeeper will bring us in a tray"

"I hate you," I said, with feeling "I hate you so much"

"Are we finished with this little production? Or do you need to rend your clothes first?"

"No I like these pants"

"Fine Fine," she said again, and took a slow breath "I want things from you, intellectually, that I don’t want physically That is to say, I could want you like--like that, but I can’t Iwant things I don’t want" I could feel her shift her weight "And maybe I just want them because I think that you want theet theh to know that I’ve lost control overyou Which, honestly, isn’t ht now, because it can’t be But I feel badly about that You’re feeling badly about that Every time you look at me, you flinch And I’ secret nefarious plans toward me, and then when she tore you apart at dinner, I was happy, because I’m frustrated with you and I’, all this wheel-spinning, and there’s no way out I can see unless we turn each other loose But that isn’t an option for me"

"It isn’t for me either," I said

"I know" Herthis prison"

"I knee’d end up in one eventually" The moon hid behind a cloud, and the roo I waited a long ti her We were each other’s ed the way it had been It wasn’t suffocating anyet a therapist, and I go back to London?"

"I loathe psychology"