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"Coht I was too…but…I am just not in the mood"

"Can you do this for me? I want to enjoy the view of the city withI’ve alanted to do with you"

I looked into his hopeful eyes and just couldn’t say no

I took a deep breath in "Alright…okay, let’s do it"

He was beah the front doors We paid for tickets so that we didn’t have to wait in the long lines

I closed h it Even though I was able to get inside one now, it still h in the past year,taken a back seat to everything else That didn’t hts or planes The is if I needed to

When we finally got onto the main observation deck, the vieas spectacular since it was a clear day Of course, being up so high still made me uneasy, but when I looked at Jake’s expression as he stared out over the city, it was all worth it

We were on the east side facing Brooklyn Jake spoke softly to AJ "See over there…that’s where Mommy and Daddy lived e ht her to htto propose toballistic as I looked over at Jake as looking straight ahead taking in the view He would point things out toto do it and hoas going to transition all of this into a proposal After about fifteen minutes, he put his arm around me and said, "You ready to head back to the hotel, babe? It’s almost time to check out"

I bitstupid and realizing that I should have known better It would take a lot h to propose again Oras he lived

Either way, this wasn’t going to change the surprise I had in store for hiht

We had about an hour before we had to check out of the hotel, and that would give h tio home

Jake still had AJ strapped to his chest as he held the hotel elevator open for , and then it carabbed onto his shirt "Jake…what just happened?"

A wide ser was on the stop button This was an apparent reenactne?" I joked

"No cha, Jake?"

"Re to fall in love with you, even then That s, even though I thought I could never have you"

"I loved that song," I whispered, tears starting to form in my eyes

"You and AJ are iven me back every last piece of innocence I lost in the years before and then so for you If you toldto be there for Ivy, then I would have no choice but to let that part of h to make sure that I don’t ever have to choose, that I don’t ever have live with guilt or regret I know it’s not easy for you when I leave you sitting on the couch breastfeeding hio see my ex-wife I’ve always seen the sadness in your eyes You’ve dealt with it…for me There is not one time I walk out the door on those days where h to know deep down that e how iven ave up on years ago, because I never thought it would ever be possible tothat ca about ht here in this stuck elevator with my family"

I closed my eyes for a brief moment, overcome with emotion When I opened the into our son’s hand It was a paper bird He hadn’t made one of those for me since before AJ was born This one wasn’t black…it hite: a dove

"I told you I wasn’t going to propose to you again I meant it," he said

He must have sensed the disappointed look on my face, because he rubbed my cheek and smiled