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"But what if I made the difference? If I pushed him over the brink of what he dreamed about, and what he would actually do?"
I don’t have any comfort for him, not about this The most terrible mistake I ever made was in someone else’s body, soht "We both know I’ht?" Paul’s voice shakes, and I remember that he lived within Lieutenant Markov for nearly a rand duchess as much as he loved me It doesn’t make me jealous, exactly--only reuerite he’d sacrifice for "She can’t hide that forever"
I walk to hiainst his chest He doesn’t respond, even as I say, "She wants the baby Vladi"
"That’s our child," Paul says "Yours and oldfish-tickle, and the shivers that went through me as I felt Paul’s baby inside "Yeah It is" I try to sether That takes talent"
He doesn’t laugh He shouldn’t Even having cracked that weak jokeus back to the here and now "Listen to me We have to deal with the consequences of our actions, absolutely I’ what, exactly?" Paul says
I hadn’t knoould say this until the h dimensions at all"
His eyes ree
"We shouldn’t stand around tearing ourselves up about it," I say "There are things we need to do as soon as we can I want to take this treatet him back in shape And we need to talk with Mo--what the Hoht be able to communicate--"
And about the Home Office’s plan to collapse as et their Josie back I need to tell Paul that, too But not this moment He looks weary and battered by what I’ve said so far Wounded The rest can wait until we get ho ourselves, then he can bear it Not yet
I reach up to put ently but firuerite--I’his profile in stark lines and elongating his shadow on the wall This place sreen caether
"You’ve talked a lot about how the diether, tied with each other in any world we could ever find" Paul takes a deep breath "I believed in destiny even before I fell for you I saritten in the equations Woven into the fabric of the universe itself But you helped me understand that ere part of destiny, you and le world," I say "Yes, there’s so powerful that we share--and maybe that’s a soul But we’re separate people, every ti revelation for hiot lost within the other Paul Markovs--I always sensed the differences The ways they thought and spoke and dreamed that I never would, or could"
He had told me this much before, but I didn’t truly understand until now