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"If you don’t get a handle on this soon, we are talking a matter of months before your body will cease to function" Dr Lund continued, but I stayed focused on the dove It hite, pure… beautiful For a fleeting moment, I wished I were that dove, that I could fly away Fly away from all of this… confusion… this pressure to be… perfect
"You are at the stage of your disorder nohere you’re losing your hair, your kidneys are shutting down, your teeth are rotting, your incessant purging has worn away the ena, and your heart is too strained to cope"
Dr Lund sighed and leaned forward, but my dove and I maintained eye contact I didn’t want to listen to what Dr Lund had to say I kneas just trying to scaree "This is it, Lexi This is what it coht here, right now It all coht this Beat this once and for all For your faain on the clock on the wall, the second hand tick-tocking by, I felt a lone tear slip downonto the skin on the back of listen Then lifting hten in shock at et to h the cracks I’d let the to escape my body I was resolved There would be nomy head, I wiped frantically atand its head al to shake The dove was disappointed inlist
I ju handsme to relax I fell into his embrace
Do not give up now, Lexington We cannot let them win We are so, so close, the voice whispered inme up in its protective cocoon The voice, both my closest friend andto achieve ive up yet
I was only a few an to rebuild, brick by treasured brick, blocking out the guilt, blocking out their concerns
Well done, Lexington You haveyou to perfection We are a teaether, we can do no wrong
A loud coo caught ain to the open , the light sus, turning to face the world outside, lingering only to register a worried glance at ht, soaring high into the endless blue sky, dancing toward the sun, breaking free, never to be seen again, leaving uaranteed I would never ever fail…
Don’t tear it dohat’s left of me
Makelyrics of yet another song from the playlist Austin had put on, I couldn’t help but feel a flicker of so withinI had knoas that Austin had been by my side
Only in the small breaks in my deepest of depressions could I feel the touch of his hand, the stroke of his callused finger running down my cheek
I couldn’t understand why he was here
Can you still see the heart of ony fades away,
When you hold me in your embrace
The lyrics filtered to e, and before I knew it, I felt a wetness slide down hts of Austin could break through the voice’s high walls
As I stared outside theat the burning winter sun, the sight of white feathers caught my eye A dove flew to the tree outside myand perched on the branch
It was beautiful
It reminded me of Austin’s tattoo on his throat, of the dove I saw all those years ago when I was sectioned for the first tiht had always calmed me The dove: the avian representation of love and peace
Hearing the creak of the door to my room, I didn’t turn around, but soon smelled Austin’s scent of summer rain, that fresh, cool smell that was so uniquely hi , would just sit besideme