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There is too ht You have done well thus far, but you can do so ranted, but let us keep striving for rip the edge of the sink, I almost felt entranced by the voice, but as I pictured the task ahead of me, the weeks I would have to cut out food in secret, take on more exercise than I already was, Austin’s face flitted into my mind… and suddenly, the voice’s persuasive words were silenced

As I glanced up at thea e myself of my doubts as I recited, You are beautiful, Lexi You are perfect just the way you are

I repeated Dr Lund’s mantra over and over until a pit forer I wanted to be stronger for Austin But the , and all I could think of was et that thought out ofas it whirled aroundwith an the counting of h it was rote

One, two three, four, five, six, seven… seven, seven, seven…

Seven It wasn’t enough Not nearly enough I should be able to count ten There should be ten ribs, clearly defined and free of fat, that I could count

What if things progressed with Austin? I wanted to be comfortable with him… with myself I wanted to be worthy of him I could only do that if I was thinner I needed to be thinner It was the only way I could ever be content with ton, give yourself to oal Austin will love you e have succeeded Be awed by you Do what youSecrecy is key Dr Lund will not be able to force you onto the scale as the pounds fall from your flesh You are not his property to order about, nor his puppet to control You belong to me and that is always the way it will be Dr Lund is an obstacle He is a barrier to perfection…

As I stared at the painted girl in the mirror, tears filled my eyes at the truth of the eyesore beforeThere was no beauty queen staring back, no redee features on her plain and chubby face Just too liness there for everyone to see

Resolved, I made my decision I would do as the voice coone, I would stop It wouldn’t go too far No one would suspect a thing It would be easy

I couldn’t see another way

It would be easy to stop…

Easy to stop…