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Sighing, I pinched the bridge of ood, Daddy I promise"

"Okay, sweetheart" The line went quiet and my daddy whispered, "I’ht all your fears, and took back your life I only e could’ve seen you"

My throat was clogged as I heard the strength of e from my daddy I hadn’t heard him like this since the day I’d left hospital "I understand, Daddy You have your patients to worry about They’reh "They’re important, sweetheart But I don’t think I’et that look on your face, the one that tellssince I saw you like that"

"I know," I said softly

"Call us soon And re a bad day"

"Okay Tell Mo, sweetheart"

With that, he hung up and,my cell The one that tells ht that way But then again, I didn’t careback when the voice had ra for perfection--thin and wonderful perfection It was all abouthad taught oal…about that time It’s hard for uilt, but because I o back That temptation would always be there There’d always be the chance that I’d fall again But I’d co girl I was back then

Flopping back onof my sorority room, then over to the calendar on my wall

Over one thousand days had passed

Four years today

Four years ago, on this very day, I was announced cured, and e Local, of course No ere they letting me move to another state where they couldn’t intervene if I relapsed

Cured A strange word I kneasn’t cured--at least not really I fought daily, hourly against the urge to go back to that tiarded food as my enemy; extreo back Couldn’t I was stronger I of ive it up I had to keep ton, you have put on weight… interrupted the voice I fought so hard to quell, a haunting echo in the back of hs You kno to get better Just let ive yourself over tofor the ideal h to let hi my head, I pushed hiain If he did, I kneould eventually win, and I wouldn’t be able to go on He would finally succeed in killinghts Cass, irl who spoke without a filter The saying was true: everything was bigger in Texas, including Cass But I envied her She owned it Lived it Wore her size with pride

As soon as I saw her, I sat up straight, grinning wide, playing the role of the happy-go-lucky girl who alears a sirl who cairl is the only "Lexi" in’?" Cass walked into the rooht black tank, and she slumped down on my black velvet loveseat at the side of the roo in bed at five pm?" Her blue eyes suddenly widened "Oh shit! Were you flicking the bean? Do you need some…" She bowed her head and whispered behind her hand, "Lexi tiroaned and launched it at Cass’s head just as she lifted her er on her left hand, rotated it like a vibrator, and licked her lips The pillow hit her square in the face, and she scowled