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I fight the tears threatening to explode

"I’m sorry I honestly never meant to hurt you Fuck I’m so sorry," he says, and the he quietly leaves my house

I sink to my knees the second his truck disappears down the road

And I cry

I just cry

Damn her

Damn her to hell

CHAPTER 18

"Hey, co her arms around me "It’ll be okay"

"I feel like I’ve lost ainst her shoulder "I honestly feel so coainst my cheek "This is why I told you to be careful, honey I knohat you two have is special, I believe it because I can see it I can see it when you two are together It’s obvious he truly does care about you, but he needs to move past all this He needs to heal"

"I know," I croak "I knew this, but I still slept with hiet close If I didn’t do that, I could have held back, I could have controlled et to that point, it all changed I’h sex drive, but I’m not a slut I’m selective who I sleep with, because I know I care too easily I knew myself, I knew I’d bond with him, but I did it anyway"

"This isn’t your fault, but it isn’t his, either You guys were in a really hard place, and you clung to each other Most people rebound with a one-night stand, but you two, you had so special, a friendship I honestly haven’t seen in a long time You should have kept it at that until he’d moved on, but you didn’t It’s a lesson learned It’ll hurt for a while, but you will be okay"

"What if he goes back to her?" I say, turning to her, eyes filled with tears "Matilda, what if I lose him?"

She takes my hand "Do you honestly think she’ll actually take hi to destroy him oncehe has to figure out for hiht this battle for hi," I whisper, a tear running down !"

Frustration and pain bubbles in my chest, and I can’t seem to make sense of either

She shakes her head and squeezes ht this one Sweetie, you can’t I know you want to protect hi you can do right now is either accept that he needs you as a friend only, or give yourself space until he’s dealt with it"

"I can’t i to him, he’s my best friend, he’s is for hio back to her for a while, do you honestly think you can handle that?"