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She told me she loved ht before those words tu a dance party on cloud nine Instead, those words pierced throughthat lasted long, but a finite stab of anger pulsed within o back to that revered place we both shared once long ago I wasn’t the same She wasn’t the same What we had was different now, and in a , I refused to let myself believe that love was even possible
And I told her such
Things clearly eroded from there There was a mad scramble by Vale off of my lap where she aardly pulled her clothes on while I tried to s better with a multitude of idiotic state here Let’s talk about this
I care for you, Vale Surely you can see that
Wait a ure this out
These lame attempts to spark a conversation fell flat She refused to look at ot dressed, and when she was fully clothed and I was still bare-ass naked, she said in a soft voice, "I’d like to go ho my clothes on slowly I felt that with every article I put back on, I was heading faster toward the demise of e had beco I could think to do was smack myself on the forehead and blurt out, "Silly me…I was confused I do, in fact, love you too"
But I couldn’t do that It simply wasn’t true, and the only explanation I had for this innate feeling of not being able to reciprocate was because I didn’t trust Vale not to hurt ain So I, in turn, hurt her
Yeah, I’m pretty much a douche
After an aardly silent start to the journey back to her apart She’s actually the one that started it
I jerked when she said in such a confused voice, "I don’t understand I thought I had it figured out"
I seized the opportunity to try to get this turned around in a positive manner Like a ht up in the s for each other, and sometimes they can seem multiplied when you’re in the middle of--"
"No," she cut in on me quietly "I’m not mistaken in how I feel I do love you I’m just confused on about why you don’t love me back"
That shut me the fuck up, for all of about two minutes Then as carefully as I could, with all hope still surging that I could still salvage this with her, I said, "I can’t explain it, but soainst it, Vale I’m just not ready to say it back"