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Dazzle uilty about your best friend’s death About your boyfriend’s death"

"Ex!" I screamed Shit

Dr Kells didn’t flinch Her voice was cal happen with you and Jude, Mara?"

I was breathing hard but I hadn’t realized it I closed my eyes Control yourself

"Please tell me the truth," she said softly

"What does itto be so much harder to help you otherwise And I really do want to help you"

I was silent

"You know," Dr Kells said, leaning back in her seat "Soram for years; they started here and then moved to our residential center, and they’ve been there ever since But I don’t think you need that I think this is just a way station for you To help you get back to where you’re supposed to be You’ve been derailed by everything that’s happened in the past six months--and that’s understandable You survived a catastrophic accident"

Not an accident

"Your best friend died"

I killed her

"You et what I did

"Your teacher died"

Because I wanted her to

"Your father was shot"

Because I forced someone’s hand

"That’s more trauma than most people are faced with in a lifetime, and you’ve experienced it within six months And I think it will help you to talk about it with me I know you’ve seen other therapists before--"

Ones I liked better

"But you’re here now, and I think that even though you don’t want to be here, you ht find that it isn’t a waste of your ti steadily now "What do you want me to say?"

"What happened with Jude?"

My throat felt raw, and"He--kissed ht The night he--"

Died, I almost said But he didn’t die He was still alive

"Did he do anything else?"

"He tried to" And so I told Dr Kells about that night, and what Jude tried to do

"Did he rape you?" she asked

I shook o?"

My face flooded with heat "He pushed ainst the wall but"

"But what?"