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Slowly I say, "I thought you returned the necklace to your irl"

I blink "Peter, I can’t accept this" I try to give it back, but he shakes his head; he won’t take it "Peter, please"

"No When I get you back, I’onna put that necklace back around your neck and pin you" He tries to hold my eyes with his own "Like the 1950s Remember, Lara Jean?"

I open my mouth and then close it "I don’t think pinthe necklace out to him "Please, just take it"

"Tell , and I’ll give it to you, Lara Jean All you have to do is ask"

I feel dizzy All around us, people are exiting the building, walking to their cars John is standing besideat me like we’re the only two people here Anywhere

It’s John’s voice that , Kavinsky?" John says, shaking his head "This is pathetic You treated her like garbage and now you decide you want her back?"

"Stay out of it, Sundance Kid," Peter snaps To me he says softly, "You promised you wouldn’t break my heart In the contract you said you wouldn’t, but you did, Covey"

I’ve never heard him sound so sincere, so heartfelt "I’m sorry," I say, my voice whisper-thin "I just can’t"

I don’t look back at Peter as I get into the car, but his necklace is still dangling from my fist At the last second I turn around, but we’re too far away; I can’t see if Peter’s still there or not My heart is racing What would I regret losing more? The reality of Peter or the dream of John? Who can’t I live without?

I think back to John’s hand onnext to hihed I don’t want to give that up I don’t want to give up Peter, either There are so s to love about them both Peter’s boyish confidence, his sunny outlook on life, the way he is so kind to Kitty The way my heart flips over every time I see his car pull up in front of my house

We drive in silence for a few ht ahead, John says, "Did I even have a shot?"

"I could fall in love with you so easily," I whisper "I’m halfway there already" His Adam’s apple bobs in his throat "You’re so perfect in my memory, and you’re perfect now It’s like I drea Of all the boys, you’re the one I would pick"

"But?"

"ButI still love Peter I can’t help it He got here first and hehe just won’t leave"

He sighs a defeated kind of sigh that hurts my heart "Goddamn it, Kavinsky"