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I know, I know, it was sort of a chicken-shit move, but the reality was that co-workers didn’t let people leave easily They had a habit of creating chaos and parties and celebrations that never ended It was all with good intentions, but I didn’t have tis packed and eles as soon as possible Jack and I needed a new home, and it was my job to find us one Because that hat the wife of a ue baseball player did She took care of her man

As I walked up the street toward the subway station, I thought I’d be more emotional I actually braced ht so hard with Jack about havingstand when it caht now, all I truly wanted was to be home with ht, but that was before I’d quit, before I’d actually resigned fro It couldone minute, then force you to realize you’d be just fine without it the next A year and a half ago, I would have sworn on le raphy, and I assu but a meing your priorities Or ed, because I’d never felt ht now And none of it had to do with my career

It was in thissubway station surrounded by strangers and lonely musicians, when I realized that er in New York, so I no longer belonged here It was a sie I wasseashells onto the shore Jack was the shell, in constanttossed around froand holding on to hi his tumble with each push and pull of the tide, yet always constant

When I walked into the waiting subway car, I had a s … filled me with more joy than I’d ever considered possible The best part was the acute awareness I had been given It was like a gift My heart wanted to burst with the sheer happiness I felt in this ht that following Jack’s career would ever feel okay toto keep hold of so that I felt definedwas, Jack was a part of ether was an okay priority for me to have

Not only was I the wife of a ue baseball player, but I was the wife of Jack Fucking Carter And I wanted to take care of my man, the same way he chose to take care of me There wasn’t a doubt inforI wanted to ask Not anymore

My fears in our relationship had been settled long ago The point I tried to prove to hi up onthe line in our relationship, Jack and his life had beco with hiainst before

The simple truth was that it hurt a lot more to be away from Jack than it did to walk away from work No one was more surprised by this revelation than me

About an hour after I arrived ho boxes I’d ordered had arrived Thankfully, he hauled theher thantape, Mrs Carter?"

I looked around and tapped the side of my head "Probably Do you have any I can borrow?"

He sray caterpillar "We have plenty I’ll be right back"

"Thank you, Thomas! Just walk back in," I yelled

Jack had been right Trying to do this all alone royally sucked I looked around at all the things we’d acquired over the years, and realized there was no way I could do this alone, and in a short time frame

How did the other wives do this, especially when they had kids? They had to have hired help, right? An idea for, I dialed Trina’s number and waited

Thouns on the table, and waved before letting himself back out I mouthed "thank you" to him as Trina answered

"I cannot believe you’re leavinghello

I sighed "I know I’ Trina and Matteo was going to be hard Maybe I could convince them to move with us? After all, we could use a driver in LA As wonderful as it would be for us, I shook away the absurd idea

"So, what’s the irl’s ear off"

"Trina, you’re seven nant! You’re not chubby! You can’t even tell you’re pregnant froirls hate you"

"Girls hate me?" she scoffed, horrified at the very idea

"I h

"So, what’s up, lovie?"

"When I move, can I call you anytime I want so you’ll talk totoyour voice so much"

Trina’s British accent was absolutely precious; I irl crush on her for that alone Plus, the words she used were adorable Everything was "brilliant" or "lovely;" when she was really sad or upset, she was "gutted;" and I was still trying to figure out what she ht it meant "shocked," but I’d never been sure