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Seven months there, three months before she left and one month since she returned

That’s al hurts

"I didn’t knohat to do," she says "I couldn’t raise hihteen when I found out, so"

I i my head "How do you know" I close rip on her waist I stand up and turn around, then pace back and forth, absorbing everything that’s happening

"Six," I say, shaking" I pause, then turn and face her "Are you tellingbaby? That we had a baby?"

She’s crying again Sobbing, even Hell, I don’t know if she ever even stopped She nods like it’s painful to do

"I didn’t knohat to do, Daniel I was so scared"

She stands up and walks toward me, then places her hands delicately on my cheeks "I didn’t knoho you were, so I didn’t kno to tell you If I knew your name or what you looked like I never would havemy hands up to hers, and I pull them away fro withinso hard to hold it back To understand To let it all soak in

I just can’t

"How could you not tell me? It’s not like you found a puppy, Six This is" I shakeit "You had a baby And you didn’t even bother tellingher head, wantingto tell you! What was I supposed to do? Did you expectfor information on who knocked me up in the maintenance closet?"

I look her directly in the eyes "Yes," I say in a low voice

She takes a step back, so I take a step forward "Yes, Six! That’s exactly what I would have expected you to do You should have plastered it all over the hallways, aired it on the radio, taken an ad out in the nant withme?"

My hand covers my cheek a second after she slaps me

The pain in her eyes can’t even co the pain inwhat I said Even when she begins to cry harder than I knew people were capable of crying

She rushes back to her car

I let her go

I walk back to the swing and I sit

Fucking life

Motherfucking life

Daniel: Where are you?

Holder: Just left Sky’s house Almost home What’s up?

Daniel: I’ll be there in five

Holder: Everything okay?

Daniel: Nope

Fivefor me I pull onto the side of the street and he opens the passenger door, then climbs inside I put my car in park and prop my foot on the dash, then look out my

I’m surprised at how pissed I am I’m even surprised at how sad I a in order to get a grip on the core of what’s upsetting ht now I can’t tell if it’s the fact that I didn’t have a say in whatever decision she made or if it’s because she was even put into that situation to have to in with

I’m pissed I wasn’t there to help her I’h so like that

I’m sad becausehell I’ this overwhel I can do about it now, even if I wanted to I’ here in a parked car and I’m about to have a breakdown in front of my best friend and I really don’t want to do that but it’s too late

I punch the steering wheel the second I begin to cry I punch it several tiins to close in on et the hell out of it I open the door and climb out, then turn around and kick o nuainst the hood onto ainst the cold er

It’s not her fault

It’s not her fault

It’s not her fault

When I’ quietly in the passenger seat, watching me closely

"You want to talk about it?" he asks

I shake my head "Nope"