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We’re both gasping for breath We’re both s at each other like this is the best night ever because it’s only ten o’clock and we’ve got a good two hours left of this I release her shoulders and take her face in e the position of ht and I stand up, then lower her onto the couch I join her, pressing one knee between her legs and the other on the couch beside her

I’et the impression that Daniel picked out this oversized couch in the sairls pick out their make-out clothes Because it’s the perfect couch for this sort of thing

I begin to kiss down her chin, down her neck and down to the area where her dress stops and her cleavage begins I slowly glide th of her body until I reach her breast I stroke ertips

Ohrab her breast a little harder and she ainsther until we have to break for air again I press ht next to her ear

"Sky?" I whisper

She inhales a quick breath "Yeah?"

I inhale a slow one "I live you"

She exhales "I live you, Dean Holder"

I exhale

And inhale

And exhale

I repeat that sentence silently in my head I live you, Dean Holder

It’s the first time I’ve heard her say Dean

It’s also the first time I’ve ever had my heart impaled by a word before

I lift away from her cheek and look down at her "Thank you"

She s alive, I think toyou," I say out loud

Her shme," she says "Especially when I’m with you"

I stare at her for several seconds, then I have to lower ain I want to kiss her, but I keep ainst hers because I don’t want her to see the tears in my eyes

I don’t want her to see how much it hurts to know she can be this close to meand somehow not remember me

Chapter Thirty-five-and-a-half

Dear all dead people who aren’t Les, since I’ letters to Les anymore,

I’ve loved Hope since ere kids

But tonight?

Tonight I fell in love with Sky

Chapter Thirty-six

Les,

I know I said I wasn’t writing to you any in that notebook because I don’t want to touch it, knowing that letter froht a new notebook Problem solved Now I need to catch you up

I’ve been dating Sky for a month now She still hasn’t had any recollection ofup, but luckily I haven’t

Re up last year? The one as talking shit about you? Well, his brother finally said so for hi it up since the day I got back to school It would have been fine had he just confronted me, but he didn’t He had to use Sky and Breckin and even you as a way to get back atshit about them to me at lunch and I swear to God, Les I wanted to hurt him just as badly as I hurt his brother Actually, I probably would have hurt him worse than I hurt his brother had Sky not been there

She sahereand she i me out of the lunchroo lot I just completely broke down on her It was like the entire past year of ut and I just had to get it out I told Sky everything I was feeling and for the first time since it happenedI ad And I also ad I told Sky how pissed I was at you How angry I’ve been since the second I walked in and found you lifeless in your bed I’ve been so s