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He tilts his head to the side It’s his are you a ot a lot worse a fewwasn’t right, but I didn’t want tofor you, I started writing you, asking you to come home Way to blowbeneath the surface "I didn’t open the letters"

"Why the fuck not?"

I glare at him "You seriously want me to answer that? You’re dead toto do with any of you And why the hell are you still hanging out with Dean? Look what he did to ht! Look!" I hold up my hands so he can seeco him here?"

"You’re still on that?"

"Holy fuck," Peter turns and yells in Sam’s face "Are you that stupid? Look at your sister and tell ht Say it, asshole" Peter pushes Sam’s shoulders, but Sam doesn’t push back Whatever Peter said to him before still has Sam spooked

Sam’s eyes flick to mine "Just come home" He turns and leaves without another word Peter shuts the door behind hi apart I don’t understand hohy I even care I have no more tears I reach behind me, and fall down onto the couch nauseated

"Why? Why did he have to coo I can’t face the toa million reasons why I can’t do it

After a few ht ahead, seeing nothing I don’t knohat to do, and I don’t knohy "There’s only one question here, Sidney Will you regret not saying good-bye to your e thelance up at him, surprised "You don’t think I’d send you alone? Not with those two?"

"What’d you say to hi That’s ht I didn’t want to hurt either of them I didn’t want to cause you more pain or make you feel more conflicted about ain No one will hurt you, not while I’m around" His eyes are so blue

"I don’t want this life I want a refund" I grip my face in o My mom has never said she needed o, but I don’t know if Sa

Peter wraps his arms around me and pulls me to his chest "I don’t want a refund" His words shock h hell and back I sit up and look at hiain?"

He nods "In a heartbeat"

"Why?" My mouth drops open into a little O I can’t stand my life I’d trade it in a second I feel like a piece of tissue paper that’s been torn and glued back together too one I’lue The pieces of me that remain are battered and broken

I watch Peter’s face I don’t understand how he can say that he’d knowingly sign up for this

He sive any of it up I knoho I as shaped ed ive it up" He leans in close to ht by mine He whispers to iven another chance, because in the end, it led th I didn’t know I felt this way I didn’t think that I could takeit violently ripped away

I knohat I need to do Running away didn’t work My past found me It will always find me I’ll never be free, not unless I face the pain I tried to leave behind

I have to go home and face my past