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His normally blank face looks so different when he allows ehtly locked walls His nose is scrunched up, eyes are narrowed, and his lips are pulled tight He looks distressed, mildly confused and constipated all in one
"Girl, there seems to be some major wires crossed between you two" He keeps his weird look, "Is that all? Seems to be a little more than just some foiled plans with all this shit"
"Yeah, Mad…there’s a lotfor et this off ed and that so fro to be there, but thishis friend and all"
"His friend; your friend Don’t see how it makes a difference who I shareup this conversation works, earning a giggle before I shake my head and look down at et in contact with him, so many letters…it was ridiculous how blinded by love I was Never once did I give up faith that he would cohe would co his serious eyes, "Never once did I give up that hope It wasn’t until al" With a deep sigh and a wobble in one long, so I didn’t really have much cause for concern I kneouldn’t be easy to talk often but I thought for sure he would call, find a way to reach out to me when he found out about my parents God, was I stupid So stupid…"
I don’t realize that I have zoned out, staring off into space, until Maddox coughs, clears his throat and interrupts my mental trip down memory lane "What happened next, Izzy?"
I turninto his understanding face for a few est sorrow "What happened? I finally had soht back into nant, Maddox Seventeen, alone and pregnant with a baby I lovedin this world Even with as ain because I had a s inside of me I was happy Even without my parents, and without Axel physically by me, I was able to feel whole"
Hisout and the wheels are turning so fast, I worry heto collect his thoughts…orup the pieces of histo hear, I’ had been shocked, and he didn’t even knoho nant?" He looks down at nant twelve years later "Izzy, what happened to the baby? You sound like you wanted the pregnancy, and forgiveany babies?" His tone is light and I know he doesn’t h my body I can’t help the flinch that rocks h I know he didn’t mean it, I can’t help the tears that rush to the surface
S sadly at him, I continue my story "No, you didn’t see any baby I lost nant" The tears are flowing now, as much as it hurts to talk about this, I start to feel a little lighter finally letting soirl…co body from the table and holds his ar out the sorrow of rief from my systemy anchor while I just let it out He doesn’t push, doesn’t ask me any more questions; he is just there I know in this moment, that Maddox will forever be part of my ‘fa to get up when he clears his throat I look over at him, shocked by the moisture in his eyes, the unchecked sadness his face holds, "Izzy, you have to be one of the strongest chicks I know Hearway I feel you, girl I feel your pain Cuts me deep, you and Reid But you two need to talk because I proirl, no clue That wire I thought was crossed is more like a ball so fucked up that if you don’t sit down and work it out, youfor no reason, a shairl A da in riddles, I don’t see how this could be misconstrued It’s pretty cut and dry if you ask el, but he can’t play du to me
"I don’t know, Mad I think if there were so else at play here, he would have tried harder to find me I’ll think about it, but no promises okay?"
"All I can ask Can’t hold that shit in forever; oing to be able to hold it in"
"Mad, you know--you know you can talk toat you and I would guess it’s so" Maddox is always so closed off and I know that thisfor him I just wish he would let irl One day, but that day isn’t today Won’t be too to bed that night feeling lighter than I have in years Dr Maxas on to so when she told me to open up and let people in All these years, I was afraid to letbad ex-Marine finally let ain
I sleep for the first time in years, without dreams, an al screa I a breakfast for both of us, when a sharp knock sounds at the door Maddox is still sleeping I heard hiht Whatever haunts hiht My heart hurts forover at the clock above the stove I note the time, 7:00 am; too early for normal company
I have to remind myself that this isn’t o wake up Mad, after all, I ao up to the door and check the peephole I jump back like the door bit me, when I see who is on the other side
Axel
Just who I don’t want to see bright and early in theWell, I didn’t want to see hi up and down like so his handsome face