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What did I let her talkho "liquor delivery bitch"! I guess that’s what happens when you have been friends with so She knew I needed her, and damn it, I needed Jack So, her announcement was met with red rimmed eyes, ratty sweats, and a best friend on her third carton of ice crea this weekend So, instead of letting lasses and proceeded to get wasted withthere
Walking over to ht’s bender, I look down at ust 8th My thirtieth birthday Also the twelve year anniversary of what is still the worst day ofinto the shoithout the aid of Jack, I can’t stopback in tis "Gram, oh my God, GRAM!! There’s blood, so much blood, Gram! What do I do? Why is there so so much…why is there any?" I’ve reached co
This can’t be happening! There is no way God would be so cruel to take this too!
I crash down ontoand praying…praying and screa sobs
Pop’s voice finally reacheso my little one, buckle up and have no worries for your beautiful heart; Pop’s got you now"
Shaking hteenth birthday is still, twelve years later,pain One day, I promise myself, one day I will be able to wake up on my birthday and shtly o, I throw my fluffy robe over my naked skin and take off to find my best friend
I walk into the kitchen and smile down at the note frorub, eat…shower, because I bet you smell like yesterday’s shit I had to run into the office, but be ready…I’ll be ho to do! That’s right, not getting out of it! LOVE- up the salad from the fast food joint up the street, I plop doith a srub, my ass More like drove two seconds away and paid someone else to do it Leave it to Dee, busy as always on a Friday before a long weekend, stillsure I eat and take care of myself Times like this remind me how lucky I am to have her in my life; I really don’t knohat I would do without her She has savedshe will be home in an hour is just more proof of that She knows I need her this weekend, so she is closing up shop half a day early
I finish up lunch and then tidy up the kitchen I return to et so to try to keep my mind free of bad memories
I know she means well, but I would much rather stay home and just be alone
I understand why she wants to keep me busy, I really do, but I just don’t think I will be able to do it Another year of going through the ‘nor everything
A quick peek at the clock hasupin soon; I at least need to be ready before the rainbows and glitter start fucking withunsuccessfully to find so to myself, I let a smile crack my face Dee can’t hold a tune to save her life, but that will never stop her
She co from ear to ear, "Hey you sexy bitch, I see you decided to rock the birthday suit today Nice choice, although, weinto the ainst this But, hey, more power to you!" She smacks my ass on the way over to park it on my bed
"What the hell, Dee! Door Closed Knock!" I try to scowl at her the way Greg always does to us, but end up laughing right along with her giggles
She flops her flat stomach down onto my bed "So, my sexy ‘older’ friend, ill be worn on your naked self today? I assu around in that closet of yours"
"I don’t know Dee," I don’t have to fake the scowl this time, "do we have to do this today? Can’t we just stay in today? I really don’t think I a with her, and I a to bet I sound as desperate as I feel I knoon’t be pleasant to be around today I had planned on a repeat of last night Shit faced, falling down, rip roaring drunk Healthy? No, but it worked and why should I et your skinny ass ready now We’re going to drive down to the o see Sway at the salon and have so co to sit at hoain, Iz, not this year"
Her eyebrows are puckering, and she looks like she will drag ree Jesus There really is no sense in arguing with her when she gets this worked up I’ll just coht at home with Jack
Now, that’s a plan with some pro for hours Or at least it feels like hours to a person who does not enjoy shopping Dee started dragging h the doors She is a woman on a mission
We were in our second store; second store after the three different lingerie stores I hadpanties than I would need in a lifeti sure I had new everything I putway