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"Oh, Jesus, Autumn"
"As you yourself pointed out to me, we can&039;t deny the truth, and shouldn&039;t atteht it any longer We are of an accord as of now, our transgressions one against the other wiped clean by deeds and words that neither of us can take back I will always regret the position I put you in with your dagger so o, and you don&039;t have to tell me that you feel deep sorrow as you stand before me now - I can see it written in your face You and I it&039;s a full circle, and it is co hers Then he brought his thumb over his eyebrow and rubbed at his forehead like it hurt "You&039;re wrong about that last part"
"I fail to see how you can argue with the logic"
"I&039;ve been doing a lot of thinking, too I&039;ht with you about it, but I want you to knoith you for more than just Wellsie I didn&039;t realize it at the ti know But I am rock solid that it was also very much about you, and after you left, that becaize - "
"This isn&039;t an apology This is about waking up and reaching for you and wishing you were next toextra food for you, and then re that you&039;re not around to feed it to It&039;s about the fact that even as I was packing up my dead mate&039;s clothes, I had you in my mind, too It wasn&039;t just Wellsie, Autu and that&039;s why I snapped I spent a day and a half sitting on ure this all out - and I don&039;t know I guess I finally found the courage to be really fucking honest with myself Because it&039;s hard when you&039;ve loved one person with everything you&039;ve got, and she&039;s gone, and someone else comes and treads all over her territory in your heart" He put his hand up to his chest and struck at his sternum "This was hers and hers alone Foreverht but shit didn&039;t work out that way, and then you ca and circle be damned, I don&039;t want to be finished with you"
Noas her turn to feel poleaxed, her body going nu
"Autumn, I&039;ht And we don&039;t have to be together, and you don&039;t have to get over what I said, but I wanted you to hear that from me And I also want to tell you that I&039;m at peace with it, because" He took a deep breath "You want to knohy Wellsie got pregnant? It wasn&039;t because I wanted a young It&039;s because she knew that every night when I left the house I could get killed in the field, and as she said, she wanted soo? She would have carved out a life for herself, and the strange thing is, I would have wanted her to do that Even if it included souess I&039;ve realized that she wouldn&039;t have wanted me to mourn her forever She&039;d have wanted me to move on and I have"
Autu came out
Had she really heard hi-lujah!"
As she let out a cry of alarer, Lassiter stepped out into the el clapped a couple of tielist "Finally!"
"Jesus," Tohr hissed as he put his weapon away "I thought you&039;d quit!"
"Okay, still not that guy as born in a nation, but the Maker wasn&039;t interested in what I had to say As usual"
"I called for you a couple of times and you didn&039;t come"
"Well, first I was flat-out pissed off at you And then I just didn&039;t want to get in your way I knew you were up to soel came over and put his hand on Autumn&039;s shoulder "You okay?"
She nodded andclose to an uh-huh
"So this is good, yeah?" Lassiter said
Tohr shook his head "Don&039;t force her into anything She is free to choose her path, as she always has been"
At that, he turned and went to the door Just before he opened the way out, he glanced over his shoulder, his blue eyes locking on hers "Wellsie&039;s Fade cereht I would love you to be there, and will understand completely if you don&039;t want to co to stay with her, and I hope you do, et her a cup of tea and soh bread done on both sides, with sweet butter, preferably the whipped kind, and a little strawberry jaar"
"What - do I look like a butler?"
Tohriving her a chance to see just how sure and steady and grounded he was - solid in a way that had nothing to do with his weight, and everything to do with his soul
He had, in fact, been transformed
With a final nod, he stepped out into the snowy landscape and deot a TV in here?" she heard Lassiter ask from the kitchen as cupboards were opened and shut
"You don&039;t have to stay," she s
"Just tell uy"
"We do"
"Well, what do you know, it&039;s my lucky day - and don&039;t worry, I&039;ll keep us entertained I&039;ll bet I can find us a Real Housewives marathon"
"A what?" she said
"I&039; it&039;ll be New Jersey But I&039;ll take Atlanta Or BH"
Shaking herself, she went to look at hihts he&039;d turned on
Oh, wait, that was just hi of?" she asked, finding it incredible that theabout human TV at a tiel save her a wink "Just think - if you let yourself believe in Tohr and open your heart to hiive yourself to hione - and you won&039;t have to worry about what a Real Housewife is"