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"Co rooame?" I ask on a head tilt "I have to tell you, I' with you, Trevor"
"No ga to be best friends"
I cross my arms over my chest "I don’t kiss et dressed, that would be great"
"We’re going to do a lotI want to throttle hirab a lace bra, a white tank top, and a pair of sweats If he’s going casual, so a I need, I head to the bathroo Trevor on ood ?" he yells I ignore hi in front of the e I look to the ceiling, hoping for the answer When ere friends before, he never kissed ht July was born And our ht waselse, so that doesn’t even really count "Why is he interested now?" I whisper, looking at ed I pull my hair up into a messy bun on top of my head, do a couple swipes of mascara and a little blush, then I open the bathroo doith one arainst his abs
"Trevor, let’s go," I say, walking to rab a pair of sneakers I sit in the chair next to the bed, bend and put the to stand next to hi the tattoo that travels down his wrist All the air is pushed out of rabbed suddenly, and tossed onto the bed with Trevor half on top ofto push hiot here," he says, his hand going to the hair at the side ofyou" I push hie
"Did you sleep into think of an excuse for wearing his hoodie His face bends towardsmy jaw I can feel him inhale, and somewhere in the back of my mind I wonder if he just sniffed ain, this ti out across h, to the underside of my knee My brain is in overdrive, and the words that I want to say see under it?" he asks, running his nose down my neck "Or did you want to feel o" I say quietly, finally getting ain, and he presses me deeper into the bed
"What scent is that?" He runs his nose along my jaw, behind ulp, as his hand behind ain
Softly, he whispers inmy heart to skip and my belly to drop "That s ether auto athis o," I stutter out on a shaky breath
"In a ue touches the base of my neck, then it travels up to hts leave oes to his bicep, the other to his head, runninghihness of the scruff on his face rubs against my skin and all I can feel is fire, the saht is all I needed to snap out of this crazythat er His eyes ainst e to moan or press into his that I had never told anyone else I trusted hi in love with the person that he is, not the guy that every woman in toants a piece of, but the real him The one who listened to me when I shared the hurt of roceries across the street The one who stopped in the , and the one who loves his mom so s her and tells her he loves her That guy; that was the Trevor that I was falling in love with Then he showed ly and hurtful, a side that I can’t forget no matter how much I want to
"Are you okay?" he asks, and I nod o," I repeat for what feels like the ?" he asks, and I alh
"I don’t even knohere to start," I shaketo be honest so that things don’t end up crazier than they already are," I tell hi a step back "First, thank you for the ride hoet lost for a second He’s so handsome; part of me wants to just say, "Screw it; Que Sera, Sera", throw caution to the wind, and get lost in bed with him for a day But I can’t do it; that’s not s for him, and he would walk aith another notch on his belt, while leavingwith you today to see July, but after that, I think that it would be best if ent back to the way things were I'in doesn’tto sleep with you" I say into sleep withmy throat "Thankfully, that didn’t happen Iwould it be to have slept with you, then have you walk aithout ever talking to h, but it’s humorless and full of hurt
"Listen, I was fucked up, okay? You’re so innocent; I thought I was doing the right thing"
"So now that you know that I’ve had sex, you think it’s okay to sleep withsaying that you’ve had sex," he growls, his hands sliding down his face "Jesus, I don’t want to fucking talk or hear about that shit"
"Okay," I whisper, startled by the pissed off look on his face
"I said I was sorry for that shit" I try to think back, but I'ized "It’s in the past; we’reto be best friends" I shakewhat it must be like to live in his universe And why the hell does he keep saying that we’re going to be best friends? I was starting to feel like I was in a bad episode of Barney "We need to go," he says, walking out of the bedroom I follow hirabs his keys off the counter, I grab et to the door, he stops and turns toto happen"