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"And then he saved us He also saved you again On the roof He didn’t have to do that"

"Didn’t have to save a hu’s life? Who would?" he scoffed

"Why are we even arguing about this?" I said My pack was feeling too heavy so I put it on the ground I hated fighting with hi from There was a lot of truth in Camden’s words and still a lot of resenthed and turned away "Because I can’t help it I can’t stop thinking about … e did"

My lungs were definitely working overti squeezed by icy fingers I didn’t like where this was going Why couldn’t we get over this? Why couldn’tminute?

"What we did?" I asked carefully "You mean when I fucked you in the bathrooave me a dirty look "Was that what it was to you? Just a fuck?"

"Ohwith you?"

"What’s wrong with me?" he repeated His s your words at face value"

That fucking hurt No, that fucking killed me, knife to heart

Another hit of thunder slah the sky and in seconds the clouds broke open Heavy rain pounded down on us, soaking us in seconds The forest roared with the sound of raindrops hitting the leaves Just perfect

I didn’t even knohat to say to that Mydownhe wouldn’t be able to tell the difference

"Why can’t you just forgivemore honest than I’ve ever been"

"How could you sleep with him so easily and then do the sa to contain myself I took in a shaky breath and looked at hih the sheets of rain

"I can’t take back what I did," I told hi to crack "I have my reasons and you knohat they are I can only control what I do from now on in I slept with you because I love you I told you the truth in that bathrooive ave you my heart You have it You should know you have it If you can’t find it in yourself to giveht now!"

"I’ you"

Oh, that did it I stor in thehim back a step I was unable to contain the strea to co liar here You’ve wanted me to suffer thea bang-up fucking job about it You think I don’t hate myself already for what I’ve done? Now I just hate myself even more because every time I look at you I see a man that once loved me, a man whose love I should have believed in, should have had faith in and I didn’t So I lost that love and I lost you all for nothing! All because I’ that never deserved anything good in her life and who believed it Now for the first tiht, better than I ever gave myself credit for and you’re the one on’t letto control the tears They stayed put but the pain in ood, Ca yourself Why can’t you just love rabbed his face with my hands, his skin slick from the rain that continued to fall steadily "You own my heart Please let me have yours"

He closed his eyes, his lashes dark and wet He breathed hard, histo hold onto hi away

"I don’t want to love you, Ellie"

All air leftinside but bones and blood I was hollow, scooped out, unlovable Undeserving I was dying in the jungle, holding on to the one with the knife

A small sob escaped me His eyes flew open, a blue ocean of pain He sed hard and put his hand behindat me with stark determination "I don’t want to love you, Ellie, but I do love you I can’t stopto since theheart" He closed his eyes again and rested his forehead against ainst each other "You broke me into so ain And I’m so damn scared, I’m scared just like you You’ve always beenSince theface on that hot dry day You ater for my soul You made me feel like I had another half, someone else who understood what it was like to be unwanted"

Oh Jesus I was azed atfroh that again I look at you and I see hiain I want to know that this can work I want you and I to go home and become a home I just want my heart to be safe in your hands because yours is safe in mine"