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Then I had bouts of depression

I wanted to stay positive and happy all the ti I could do about it

And through all of this, Jake was right there with e frory, running a few inches back froe patch of ery

I felt hideous

When I said this to Jake, he held me in his arms

"We can always make a fashion statement out of it, sweetheart I can shave a patch of my hair off too"

"You wouldn’t suit the bald look" I sht But you do" He tookainst ht now You are beautiful to me always, no matter what"

Jake kne much it bothered me, so once I was able to, once the scar had near to healed and rown back a little, Jake had a hairdresser come to the hospital and put some extensions in Once she was finished, you couldn’t tell there was a scar unless you were looking for it

Jake has done everything possible to help et back to the person I was before the accident Because of his help, I’reat I suffer with night with shooting pains inas it used to be But I’m lucky to be alive, and I le day It doesn’t take much, I just look at Jake and JJ and kno lucky I a in the world to be thankful for because I have theht away froht him into my hospital room

Jake had JJ moved into my room Of course, Jake was there with us too

It became our home away from home I even spent o out celebrating, so Jake brought the celebration to me, and we had a miniparty with Mum and Dad, Simone, Denny, Stuart, Josh, Smith, and Carly Even Susie and Dale were there Tom ay, so he couldn’t be

Jake had Pizza Hut brought in, and he bought ifts to catch up to the twelve missed, then another to ifts were a charm bracelet The bracelet was one and six char to us--a slice of pizza, a little Eiffel Tower, a guitar, a cupcake, a piano, and a scroll charm inscribed with "Best Friends"

My present for s froht into ht into everything

The only downside to my party was the tension between Jake and Susie It wasn’t noticeable to the others, but it was to me

After everyone had left, I asked Jake as going on

He told ht before I woke up frou as said between them I told Jake he needs to make sorandma Kids are smart--JJ will pick up on the tension between therow, so they need to talk it out sooner rather than later

I know he hasn’t talked with Susie yet, but he will, and soon, now that I’m back on my feet I’ll make sure of it

I don’t care what he says He needs his mum

I know that evenwith JJ, it was hard not being able to do the things a e his nappy, bathe him, and soothe him when he cried

I felt useless And it frustrated the hell out of me

I had to watch Jake do it all, but he made sure to includeJake with hi with JJ He treats hio And no matter how many times I tell Jake not to let JJ fall asleep in his arms, to put him down in his crib, he still lets hier, and it war a dad should be and more I knew he had it in hiht in the hospital

"You’re really good at this," I said over the sound of JJ wailing, while I watched Jake give him his first proper bath

I couldn’t help--my ar instead

"I don’t know about that" He gaveHe’s done nothing but cry since I started bathing hiht It’s just new to hi you, quite loudly, that he’s not sure about this bathing business" I gave hiets the loud froave hier

"Did you just flipthe soap froe

"Looked like it" I grinned

"I can’t ever reirl?"

Getting to rabbed JJ’s towel and handed it to Jake "I don’t know if I was ever sweet"

"You were You still are" He leant close and kissedme the bird, that is"