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"You have no idea, Nicky, not yet"

"Show me," he said, and he rolled back closer to me

"Strip," I said

"What?"

"When the ardeur raises, the clothes will come off We can either take the to wear afterward"

He frowned at ain and lifted his shirt off in one motion He looked better out of the shirt than in it

I glanced ahile I started getting out of my clothes I did not want us to rip up another custom-made holster I also wanted clothes after we finished It was not the way I wanted to be naked in front of a ht I needed to finish this before he came back and checked on us I needed to finish this before he figured out that I was going to do more than feed off of his lion Because I had decided that I was going to roll Nicky like any good vampire, except because I wasn&039;t really a va aze to make him do what I needed, but I could use the ardeur to tie him toto get to all these months I could make him my lion to call

It was supposed to be an honor, soe, but I didn&039;t have ti to be theI wanted to ask Micah&039;s and Nathaniel&039;s opinion of it I wanted Jean-Claude to talk to me first I wanted ht, I needed help now That help was nude in the et there was a plan He was beautiful, all that ht and shadow,I hadn&039;t before, the process had already begun It was about to the point where Haven had stayed I wanted hiood, but I&039;d kept the Rex out of that last bit ofI&039;d left a vacancy sign, and the first new dominant lions I met had both tried to fill it Shit

I held ement He just came to ht that was nearly perfect

I opened the ardeur and realized that there was a thread of it attached to hi on to Jacob He was fighting it so hard There was a small part of me that wanted to force him to come to us, but he didn&039;t share He would never be able to fit into our lives He would always have to be king, and I had enough kings inthe power behind the throne, not the ass on it

Nicky&039;sme in his arms so he could suck them while still on his knees He sucked and bit until I cried out Then he let er, that even hiain He stood up, and it forced that soft, girl sound from me; half startleainst ainst his back, put his hands on le me onto him, but in the end I was too impatient for it and wrapped h for his, and he began to push his way inside The ardeur made me wet and ready but only real foreplay ht, God!" he said, and his hands let go of uideinside me an inch at a ti about that first entry, that first hard push deep inside me that just did it for o, so that I felt our bodies wedded as close as they could be, I shuddered around hih of the all that was at his back

The shudder had thrown h to look at him I put my hands on either side of his face at the saan to move in his lap, with hi into the ground to give hiainst the wall in the su Brown and black, like brown glass with light behind them"

There were other colors he could have said that would have scared me, too, because I&039;d been possessed by a vampire or two in my day, but he&039;d described my eyes with power in them It had only happened a tiht it didn&039;t frighten me He stared, mesmerized, into the dark diamonds of my eyes as his body went in and out of mine, and my hips rose and fell with his round my hips into him, helped hiood, so good

I breathed his name over and over, as that warm pleasure built deep in my body "Nicky, Nicky, Nicky, Nicky, Nicky" One last thrust and he spilled asm to the sky But my pleasure didn&039;t let me feed; it was only as his body released inside mine that the ardeur fed And then that hen I truly fucked him I fucked hiht ain and his body shoved itself one last deep thrust, and the ardeur did what it did best, brought hiain, made him mine as he cried out my name

I felt his power, his beast, his essence, his everything offered up in that hts came to me That I could take all he had and leave hie, because killing hiht, not so dark, came-that he could be ours Ours not just for thisas anted to keep him The ardeur had accidentally bound men to me before, but I&039;d never done it on purpose, until now

I&039;d meant to make him my lion to call, but in that moment the ardeur of the vampire in me understood there was another option, an option that would make him my slave Animals to call had free will to a point, they had choices I needed Nicky&039;s choices gone I needed his choices to truly be mine I did to Nicky what I&039;d had va to hunt them I did to him what I&039;d seen vampires do to police officers and other executioners I chose my free will over his I chose the lives of the men I loved over Nick&039;s freedom I chose my life over his, and I took him I took his body, his ave hih the sweat of his body, the release of him inside me I drank him down But there in the dark there was his need A need to belong, to be held, a need for gentler things than Jacob had ever allowed him Belle Morte&039;s line deals in sex, love, and power I was still too new at it to guard myself from the one weakness We could only control asto be controlled Only love asto love Satisfy lust only asto be satisfied If I had been thinking better, I would have kept to the sex I kne to do that now, but I needed hi, his friend Men don&039;t do that just for sex, but for love for love people will do terrible things I needed Nicky to be willing to do anything I asked, and for that I illing to daot dressed Nicky said, "Jacob will kill o"

"We&039;ll cross that bridge e come to it," I said

"I can&039;t love you," he said

"Do youme, or that you can&039;t possibly love me yet?"

"The second one"

I held my hand out to him "Take my hand, Nicky"

He put his hand out immediately and took mine "I can&039;t refuse you?"

"I don&039;t think so," I said

He frowned "Why doesn&039;t that scare me? It should scarehis thu practice I doubted he even kneas doing it

For my part, I didn&039;t just feel healed, or full, but better I felt energized, as if rolling Nicky so thoroughly had fed the ardeur more completely than simple sex Was this what it felt like to truly embrace the power? Was it just better this way, or was there so about Nicky that made him yummier? Was this how Jean-Claude felt when he used his powers fully? I&039;d ask hiot home There were still a lot of probleht One of those probleh the toy rode before hie of storreed"

"I felt what you did and it was un out now, pointed very steadily at me

"You said you knehat I was, Jacob," and I felt so when I said his name I felt that thread that the ardeur had attached to hi his naun down"

He actually started to lower it, and then caught hiain and I will shoot you We&039;ll eat the second half of the money before I let you roll us all"

"Then let o home"

"We don&039;t have a home," Nicky said, "we have hotel roo so we don&039;t have a territory, Nicky, you know that"

"We&039;re lions, Jacob, we need a territory We need a place to be"

"You&039;ve witched hiave him to me for food, Jacob What did you think would happen?"

"Not this," and he sounded pained, as if he took it as a personal failure that he hadn&039;t understood "This is how you have all the men You feed on them and they&039;re yours I&039;ve seen male vampires do that Brides they&039;re called"

"You mean like the Brides of Dracula?" I said

"Yes," he said, and the gun was still pointed at me

"The Groo to it, Jacob"

"No, it doesn&039;t, but Nicky is looking at you like you&039;re his whole world It&039;s not just sex, is it?"

"No"

"I should shoot you for this"

"Jacob, you wanted h to raise the dead You wanted h power to do what Bennington wants You wanted to earn the second half of your round again

"I&039;ve done exactly what you wanted, Jacob"