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During the tie of state, Malcolm told him that his new life would be better than his previous one

"We’ll never grow old," Malcol -- car crashes, cancer, terrorism, the infinite petty horrors of mundane life We’ll persist, despite all obstacles We’ll prevail"

In Western culture, aging always means diminished power Malcolm said they’d enjoy freedom from pain -- and from love, the curse of mortals They would live without what he called the ephemera: transitory concerns based on mortal personalities and politics that, in the end, no one would remember

Malcolm spoke of mortals as if they were vampires’ worst enemies "The world would be a better place if humans were extinct," he said

I took another sip of Picardo, which sent a tingling sensation through ree?"

"Soree" My father waved his hand toward the shade-covered"When you walk around out there, you see so reed and malice The abuse and murder of humans and animals -- unnecessary, yet commonplace Valiness We’re a bit like God in that respect; you don’t recall that line of Spinoza’s, that to see things as God does is to see theht we didn’t believe in God"

He smiled "We don’t know for certain, do we?"

But Malcolm didn’t e to feed, the s, the vulnerabilities, and all of the ethical ie of state

At first my father considered himself no better than a cannibal Over time, he learned the truth of Bertrand Russell’s belief: by ordering one’s mind, happiness becoht when my father was half conscious, he called for Sara Malcol was never to see her again

"There’s a history that you don’t know yet," Malcolm said "Other vampires have tried to live with mortals, and it never works The only alternative is to bite her You could use her as a donor, so long as you never let her bite you I personally would be disheartened if youacross a sofa in my father’s room as he said this, very like a character in an Oscar Wilde play -- the consuht that Malcol would be for hionized over how to let her knohat had happened How could he tell her what had taken place? What sort of letter could he write?

My ious in a conventional sense, but she believed in a God aods, to whom she could pray in tinored that God, as many mortals do My father was afraid that his news could shock her into so with her again -- si to a place where she’d never find him

When Dennis took over Malcolan to look at the problem differently Perhaps there were other alternative actions At any rate, it was clear to him that the ht write, she wouldn’t believe it -- and she deserved to hear an explanation face to face

Soht that he and h to weather the situation Most times he felt otherwise Malcolm had told him some odd tales while he was bedridden, and they persuaded him that any vampire union with a mortal was da, he told ly, Dennis raised the subject "What will you tell Sara?"

"I’ll tell her everything," my father said, "once I see her"

"Isn’t that risky?"

For ato Malcolm But then he looked across at his friend -- the freckled face, the wide brown eyes -- and he realized again all Dennis had done for hi to inject him

"What’s life without risk?"but mauvais foi"

He reminded me that mauvais foi means "bad faith"

"We need to spend a little more time with the Existentialists, don’t you think?" he said

"Father," I said, "I’d be happy to spend more ti these details I do But I can’t bear the idea of going to bed tonight still not knowing aboutto die"

He stirred in his chair, and looked over atroom, and you shall have the rest of it"

In the end my father didn’t have to choose a way to tell my mother what had happened She took one look at hied"

Rather than bringing her back to Cae, my father took her to the Ritz Hotel in London, and they spent the next five days trying to come to terms with each other Sara had packed carefully for the trip; she had a distinctive style, reen chiffon dress that rippled like romaine lettuce

But she didn’t have any reason to dress up Instead of going to the theatre, or even downstairs for tea, they stayed in their suite, ordered rooht bitterly over their future

When my father told her about his new state, she reacted as humans are said to react to news of a loved one’s death: with shock, denial, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression, and finally, some sort of acceptance

(He noted that I had not reacted in those ways to anything he’d told ht be "one of us")