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"Me, I was lookin’ for love What’s that song? In all de wrong places"

The sadness on his face made me want to touch him, but I knehere that would lead

"Those days are gone," he murmured "Love isn’t for me"

"Why not?"

Adam contemplated my face "You aren’t lookin’ for love We both know that"

He was right, so I dipped my head

"I want you Shouldn’t, but can’t seem to help myself I see that red hair," He picked up a strand and rubbed it between his fingers "Sreen eyes, and I losenew, and I kind of liked it

"Since I left de army, there’s been no one"

"No one?" I found that hard to believe

"No one," he insisted "And in de ar I caht?"

He quirked a brow and my face heated I’d never had a conversation like this before, although if I planned to spend the rest of e, I’d have to get used to them

"There was never anyone but Si in the air unspoken

Adaain "Why not?"

"He was everything, and when he died - " My throat closed

"A part of you ith him," he finished

I didn’t bother to answer Couldn’t, really

"It’s not natural to be alone"

I cleared my throat "I’m fine"

"Sure you are You’ll fall in love again"

"No," I snapped

"No?"

"I don’t ever want to feel the way I felt when he died"

"So you feel nothing?"

"I had my shot Simon was it for me"

"You don’t think you can love twice in one lifetiht in the eye "No"

He studied me for a second to ascertain that I ave a sharp nod, as if we’d sealed a bargain I guess we had

"You’re like a wolf," hefor life If one dies, de other is forever alone"

"How do you know so e, no?"

I stared at hiht The whole e

"Never ht "There’s more to be concerned about than STDs"

All I needed was a baby I could barely take care of lanced around the sparse bedroo much better

In truth, I wasn’t crazy about kids I didn’t long to be a mother Maybe this made me a freak of nature, but that’s how I felt

I was an only child I’d never played ith others Without brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews, I’d had neither a reason nor an inclination to babysit Kids just made me twitchy

Simon and I had decided all we needed was each other We’d planned to travel the world, sleep in tents until we couldn’t any to have Si to have anyone else’s

"I can’t," Ada about the sa, I asked, "Can’t what?"

"Have children"

"No kidding" I lowered aze to his lap "You aren’t exactly equipped for the process"

"I nant"

I wasn’t sure what to say I could ask rong with him, but since he hadn’t offered to telllike this? I didn’t have a clue

Adam stood and turned away, as if the conversation upset hih I hadn’t seen any scars and I’d seen pretty

Perhaps, unlikehe’d never have theht account for some of the sadness in his eyes

The question was: Did I believe him?

I studied Adaht be: Why would he lie?

Since I couldn’t come up with an answer, I went to him and slid my arms around his waist "It doesn’t matter"

"Nor

The way he said the word, with that French twist, always made him sound just a tad sarcastic, which was probably the whole idea

"For us, that’s a good thing"

He turned inme into his "Whatever you say"

"We’re having a - "

Adam tilted his head "A what?"

An affair sounded too long-ter too flippant for the intensity of e’d shared

"I’m not sure," I said "But whatever it is, it’s about sex, not love, or kids, or anything but the ht?"

"Whathis head, he kissedall of himself into the embrace Only later, ere back in bed,after another bout of exactly what I’d wanted, did I consider his response Or rather his lack of one Ada every one of my questions with a question of his own

And that wasn’t really an answer at all, was it?