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Alden is well, and busy There is such a need for him here
And I have made friends There is lots to do, for a sroup or go to cocktail parties There are good people in Branford
Alden had ist in Portland, and the neas disappointing, I'm afraid The same old tests that I had in Boston, and the sa--" etc The sa?"
We have registered with an adoption agency, but they are just as dreary to listen to as the doctors My lord, Tallie, the paper-pushing that goes on! They see with humans And with babies They call theh percentage of success" Ho hues; I just want a baby, for pete's sake Alden isof all the bureaucratic nonsense, and he ood impression on them, I'm sure, but then they look at"Hmmmmwould one of our placements ith this crazy woman ears jeans to an interview?"
And of course they cringedtastefully, of coursewhen they asked about round Turns out ine why! I thought having tutors coreat! Especially when they went, and left the three of us together and we all used to agonize over those schoolbooks and soether Reebra I when none of us could understand the fifth chapter?
Oh well I wouldn't trade that for anything, but it is, apparently,a "placement" difficult In the meanti I haven't given up hope, not at all
But I would so like a child A daughter, I confess I daydreas that you used to sing to ht add
Do come to visit We could drink tea and sit by the fireplace and talk
Much love,
Kay
June 10, 1960
Dearest Tallie,
Isn't it wonderful that we are living here, right on the way to Ox Island, so that there was no way you could not visit en route?
I loved having you here; so did Alden It will take me a week to catch up on the lost sleep, but I have needed someoneespecially youto sit up with and talk to
No, there is no nes froency We have been officially approved, whatever that meansI suspect, from the way the woman looks at me, that they have stamped HIGHLY SUSPECT on our papers, but they do say that we passed all the necessary procedures, inspections, whatever
But that see, because then they tell us about the WAITING LIST, in hushed voices Seems there is a LONG WAITING LIST
Maybe I will just turn the e rooet that I wanted to hang bright pictures on the walls, and look in at night to see a baby sleeping there
Oh, dammit, Tallie You know, I try to be cheerful about it, but I want a baby so badly Reht away, and then another every year until there was a houseful? And noe have a houseful of eood, and says "Wait, wait," very patiently, but how can you wait forever for so you want so much?
I'm sorry to whine But you will understand
Much love,
Kay
July 12, 1960
Dearest Tallie,
I don't knohere to begin this letter I have been sitting here in the kitchen drinking tea and s, all by myself Pour yourself a cup of tea while you read this and then smile with htly that there is a possibility of our adopting a baby privately Not just "a baby," but a real one that is already in the , that already exists! It is to be born in the fall
I haven't been able to sleep since we heard Alden is as alwaysall the pros and cons, as he puts itbut I am quite, quite sure that we have already made the decision He wants it as much as I do, and fro All quite legal; just that we don't have to go through the long waiting period that the agency has been pro for your child to be born? This is no different fronant I am so excitedso scared I worry about whether the baby will be born safely, and be healthy I lie awake at night and think of all the things that I have waited so long forto hold s, even to knit little sweaters, even though you kno undomestic I am!
I say "it" because I dont want to tempt fate, I suppose, but I feel very certain that it will be a little girl Alden as usual pretends not to allow hiht up by whims and emotions; he quotes statistics to point out that it is just as likely, ht, while ere having dinner, he suddenly smiled and said, "Let's narandmother? Oh, hoish Stefan were alive to share this with us all!