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"Margie’s been coht to make sure I have food or whatever We would talk for a little while" E she hasn’t shown up tonight because she saw the car out front"

I yawn, but not because I’m bored I could listen to Emily talk forever about the six days I h and the days I ithout restful sleep are showing

"You are so tired, Ethan We can do this tomorrow" Her hand slides down my face as a warm smile takes over her features

I stand to head toward the bedroom, and she turns to make her bed on the couch

"Eo to bed" The, "well, duh," look she givesher bed tells"No, ummm"

Why am I so nervous to say this?

I roll ether," I say as I step to the doorway of the bedrooe, and I realize my mistake

"No! Not like that I just" I have ht, so I pause and collecton the couch, Emily We’re adults who love each other I don’t want to be apart any else" I want her to understand that I’ I want her close, but I don’t want her to be uncomfortable This is a monu" I decide that perhaps a little lighthearted hu"

I will behave

I put on full length pajaet under the sheet, lie flat on my back and cross my hands over my stomach

I wait Patiently? No

Emily enters the bedroom from the bathroom, and I can tell she’s nervous I’m not sure if her anxiety is because of the prospect of sleeping witha tank and panty set I’rooman

I can see her nipples

And herI’m definitely in trouble

Do I tell her?

I have no idea what the protocol is for divulging sexual history to a prospective es of Eh , "Me man, you woman" It’s totally ridiculous that I’ve reverted to a prehistoric mindset If I were a caveman, I’d have an easier tirab Erunts Being without conversational language skills has its advantages; there’s no way to explain everything

My thoughts have veered off course, and I need to focus on the wo a h I haven’t admitted it to myself, this is one of the reasons I’ with Emily Sex and the topic of sex have always been off the table with her We have never discussed previous experiences I’d always assu on e I’irls aren’t having sex I just didn’t want E nervous about Emily’s sexual experience, or lack thereof, isn’t my only reason for pause I don’t knohether or not I should divulge s, while the other part of me says it doesn’t ht I know honesty is the best policy, but will it do ood in this case?

"Ethan?" I look up and see those expressive eyes She needs h I ht, it see to persuade me to do more How else would you explain the tiny underwear and feline-like movements? If I don’t stop this dead in its tracks now, I knoon’t Things will go too far too fast