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There’s so at Kara and she’s acting like she’s s People filter out Jeanette and Marta beeline for the door, but Anna holds back, waiting for Kara, who is putting on her shirt

She turns to Anna "Do I look okay? I look okay, right?"

Before, Anna would’ve rolled her eyes I refuse to feed into your insecurities, Kara Own it or fuck off Now she says, "You look great"

"I’ll be there in a second," Kara tells her Anna leaves

She leaves the two of us alone together

"Get the hell out, Regina," Kara says, like the roo with her hair She’s been obsessive about her hair since the photos fro her aside in the hall after they were taken Anna toldabout your…hair

She’s thinking the sa the strands of blond hair slip between her fingers She turns to me

"You made me hate myself" She says it in a voice like it’s this epiphany she has over and over "You know that, right?"

"I’ed you feel," I

"I just want you to understand what I’ve done to you this year is barely what you deserve I’," I interrupt "You went too far, too soon I can’t believe you spent all that tiht have felt bad, but you pushed it, and now I’ll never be sorry"

She stares at me "Guess I’ll have to try harder"

She leaves

I don’t knohy, but I start thinking about Liz And then I think about Donnie I bringinto myself as ainst my jeans, and then I start to cry I don’t want to cry Soon there’s a nice wet spot on s Soe, so they can spend the tiy

I brave-face the cafeteria, entering the bustling rooht to the Garbage Table Michael’s already there, a tray of food beside hi in his Moleskine, and his face inspires another apology I’ll never have the guts to give hi when he sees me He closes the book, sets it aside, pulls the tray of food toward hi," he says I dig into ?"

It’s obvious I don’t knohy he has to ask "Why?"

"just thought I’d ask on the off chance that you have been"

I stare at the table and my eyes well up This is totally fantastic I wipe at my eyes, which only seems to cause more tears, and when I chance a look at Michael I can tell he’s trying not to look like this is a big deal or that it’s weird

"You know, you never asked me what I did to Kara to make her hate me," I say He stays silent and waits for ainst – I don’t knohy-- and crying, and I feel like a freak and I can’t stop I lean back in ulps of stale cafeteria air

Michael stares at me like I’ve lost my mind

"My mom must’ve had a field day with you," he says

"The second time I was in your moht she was talking about herself, you know, but it was--"

"The candy," Michael finishes "She did that soht had a sense of huht that about you"

"You look like her," I tell him "She was so nice"

"She was"