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My shoulders hurt where Evan shook them I hold my hand out It feels like lead, but at least I’ood because I’ to be sick

I forceto re rooain because I’ve been here a million ti room, but my head feels awful and I just can’t think

I push through the door and bump into God kno h at e of the party where everything’s funny Who knows My stomach flip-flops

I cover my mouth

The closest bathroo line and there are three bathrooms upstairs, but I don’t think I’ll make it to any of them in time The music is so loud it forces any other potential plans of action right out of h the kitchen, head outside, take a few uncertain steps toward so left in , which is worse

When it’s over, I sit back on the grass, trying to ignore the sour taste inhow I’llroohing it up with souy I don’t know He looks older than us and she’s in full party mode, probably buzzed, and the way she leans into hiuy when she wants to fuck hiain I have to fix it

"Parker?"

"I’ by," I tell her

What else as are happening, aren’t they? Evan Cor back That must be nice for you and your friends" Grey’s voice is like nails on a chalkboard "I saw hiet things together You two could help each other"

"How?"

"Well, given the circumstances"

"You mean because he tried to kill himself, you think we can help each other?" I can’t believe I’h this for a dance "It won’t help" "Why not?"

"Because Evan didn’t really want to die And mine was an accident"

"Evan didn’t want to die?" she repeats slowly Stupid "The evidence certainly suggests otherwise"

"He didn’t," I say "He planned it right down to getting caught"

Stupid, stupid And then I decide to give it to her because when people are this stupid they should be told every once in a while

"When he got in the bath with the razors, he knew his mom would find hiesture than anything Like, `This is how far I would go for absolution,’ and everyone was like, `Wow, fine, you’re forgiven’ And that’s how he lives with hioes on like before Which doesn’t help esture around the roos I’ve done "Is this your bit?"

God, she’s so stupid

"Look, can I go to the se time

"Wait here"

She leaves the room I sit in the hard plastic chair and wait, wait, wait for, like, ten o to the seo to the se less than your best behavior--"

"I know; I knoon’t graduate"

"That’s right You won’t"

The bell rings I head for the door

"Thanks," I say without looking at her

"English horab it and she heads on her "

"See you toives me a hilariously quizzical look

It could be worth it for this alone

"What?"

"I’ll see you tomorrow For the se s forward to it"

I’m such a bitch, but Becky makes it so easy

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