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"God, I’m sick of your condescension, Gansey," Adanant? Don’t pretend you’re not trying to make me feel stupid"

"This is the way I talk I’nant He was too busy sainst the wall of your trailer while you apologized for being alive"

Both of theone too far It was too far, too late, too much

Adam shoved open the door

"Fuck you, Gansey Fuck you," he said, voice low and furious

Gansey closed his eyes

Adaain when the latch didn’t catch Gansey didn’t open his eyes He didn’t want to see what Ada solionby sweater Just then he hated his raven-breasted uniform and his loud car and every three- and four-syllable word his parents had used in casual conversation at the dinner table and he hated Adam’s hideous father and Adam’s permissive mother and most of all,over and over

He couldn’t stand it, all of this inside him

In the end, he was nobody to Adam, he was nobody to Ronan Adam spit his words back at hiave hiuy with a lot of stuff and a hole inside him that cheayaway from him But he never seemed able to walk away from them

Gansey opened his eyes The aone

It took Gansey a few moments to locate hi across the parking lot toward the road, his shadow a s beside hier , and then he started the Pig By the tiet to the lot, Adahway that ran by the hospital There was so where Adaht lane pass hi?" he shouted out "Where do you have to go?"

Of course Ada -- but he just kept walking

"Ada

"It doesn’t have to be Monmouth," Gansey tried a third ti"

Please just get in the car

Ada in jerkily, he pulled the door shut He didn’t do it hard enough, so he had to try two more times They were silent as Gansey pulled back into traffic Words pressed against his ed to be said, but he kept silent

Adam didn’t look at him when he said, finally, "It doesn’t matter how you say it It’s what you wanted, in the end All your things in one place, all under your roof Everything you own right where you can see …"

But then he stopped He dropped his head into his hands His thuh the hair above his ears, over and over, the knuckles white When he sucked in his breath, it was the ragged sound that caht of one hundred things that he could say to Adaht, hoas for the best, how Adam Parrish had been his own man before he’dhis ownthe roof over his head, how some days Gansey wished that he could be him, because Adam was so very real and true in a way that Gansey couldn’t ever see weapons, and he didn’t trust hiain

So they drove in silence to get Adas, and when they left the trailer park for the last ti from behind the kitchen , Adam didn’t look back

Chapter 39

When Blue first arrived at Monht it was empty Without either car in the lot, the entire block had a disconsolate, abandoned feeling She tried to i the warehouse for the first tireat place to live, but she couldn’t picture it Noit was a great car to drive, or Ronan and thinking he was a good friend to have But somehow, it worked, because she loved the apartrow on her, and the car …

Well, the car she could still live without

Blue knocked on the door to the stairwell "Noah! Are you here?"

"I’m here"