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Cabeswater’s gone Glendower is there -- he one The drops pattered and dispersed on the windshield He thought about the day he’d been stung to death by hornets and lived anyway Gansey ran over theGlendower’s naave hi sorry for himself, that he should have so many friends and yet feel so very alone He felt it fell to him to comfort theht, abruptly angry with hiood is all your privilege, you soft, spoiled thing, if you can’t stand on your own legs?

The door to Moneneralized flapping gesture It seemed tofairly urgent about it

Ducking his head against the rain, Gansey joined Noah "What?"

More hand flapping In they went

Inside, the s -- the rusty fixtures, the wormholed wood, his mint plants -- had been overtaken by an unfaely fertile and unpleasant Perhaps it was brought out by the rain and the huing, Gansey cautiously stepped into theto the second-floor apartround floor was dih up on the walls Rustyaloft, spaced wide to leave roo substantial in both height and width Everything was dust in this forgotten factory -- the ground, the walls, the shifting shape of the air It was unused, spacious, timeless Eerie

Ronan stood in the center of the room with his back to them This Ronan Lynch was not the one that Gansey had first ued but wary of the youngin the motes of dust Ronan’s closeshaved head was bowed, but everything else about his posture suggested vigilance, distrust His wicked tattoo hooked out froerous and hollowed-out creature He was a snare for you to step your foot in

Do not think of this Ronan Re down here?" Gansey asked, vaguely unnerved

Ronan’s posture didn’t alter at the sound of Gansey’s voice, and Gansey sa that it was because he was already wound to the utmost A ht

Chainsaw rolled in the dust between his feet She appeared to be in the midst of ecstasy or seizure When she saw Gansey, she stilled and studied him with one eye and then the other

Outside, thunder ruh the broken panes above the staircase A whiff of that huain

Ronan’s voice was flat "Queladius neminem occidit; occidentis telu noun declension before breakfast "If you’re trying to be wise, you win Is quemadmodum ‘just like’?"

When Ronan turned, his eyes were shuttered and barred His hands were also coated in blood

Gansey had a pure, logicless ht, I don’t knoho any of my friends really are Then reason filtered back in "Jesus Christ Is that yours?"

"Ada m’s"

"Dream Adam’s," Noah corrected quickly "Mostly"

In the rain, in the dim, the shadows shifted in the corners It rehts he’d spent here, when the only way he could sleep was to pretend that this vast roo

"Do you remember last year?" Ronan asked "When I told youit wouldn’t happen again?"

It was a foolish question Gansey never forgot Noah discovering Ronan in a slick of his own blood, veins ripped to shreds Hours in the hospital Counseling and pro coy Gansey said, "When you tried to kill yourself"

Ronan shook his head once "It was a nightmare They tore estured with his bloody hands "I brought it with me I couldn’t tell you My father told me to never tell"

"So you let me think you’d tried to kill yourself?"

Ronan allowed the weight of his blue-eyed gaze to rest heavily on Gansey,another answer His father had told him to never tell And so he had never told

Gansey felt the entire year reshaping itself in his head Every night he’d been terrified for Ronan’s well-being All of the times Ronan had said, It’s not like that At once he was incensed Ronan would have allowed him such continuous fear and relieved that Ronan was not such a foreign creature after all It was easier for Gansey to wrap his head around a Ronan who made dreams real than a Ronan anted to die

"Then whywhy are you down here?" Gansey said finally

Overhead, soed Both Ronan and Chainsaw snapped their chins upward

"Noah?" Gansey asked

"I’"