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I frown a little, but I never takeis really about him, not me? Why do I fall into that portion? Why does he care about

"I keep touching you because I can’t stop and like I’ve said before, I will hurt you and soon it’s going to be you that has to tellout" His eyes narrow in "If you don’t push me away and you decide to let irlfriends and I don’t do feelings If you get hurt, it’s on you Not ht of his words rest on my chest and I’ he just said Maybe I should tell hi it when he decides to let hiirls" I say quietly He raises an eyebrow and I continue "The girls in the gym that come for you and you send them away I don’t want to be one of thehten and a wide senuinely finds what I said a "No, I treat them how they want me to treat them They want to fuck, so I fuck them That’s it"

"And if one of them wants e my stance on relationships" He throws his toothpick onto the table "No one has tried to get to know the real me, but I take full blame for that"

"So tell me about the real you"

He winks at ht me to dinner, but we can’t talk about you?"

He shakes his head "I brought you to dinner to apologize and to give you a heads up That’s all"

I press the fork into er God! Why is this e received" I drop the fork, grab my clutch and rise to uy like you in uy like me?"

"Yes I’ve already had so that moves and quite frankly, I don’t think I can stoy and your heads up and you can shove them up your ass because I don’t want you I don’t want you now and I won’t want you next week I hatethat I can have a little bit of fun after breaking up with my boyfriend of six years"

I storh the car park I’ll walk hoainst the concrete footpath underneath ry, but I knoill later and it won’t be because Seth told me he is incapable of relationships or because he likes to fuck randoirls It will be because I’m stupid and weak I will cry because I let Seth upsetabout me has upset me and I hate myself for it Out of the corner of et in the car" He calls

His voice sends dread hurling through my stomach I flip him off and increase my pace

The car jerks to a stop and he ju arms seize my waist and he throws me over his shoulder

"Jesus Christ, Seth Put er door and sits me on the seat He reaches across and pulls the seatbelt over htly The door slams shut and I jump a little He climbs into his side and says "I pissed you off, at least let et fresh air on my face and I don’t look at Seth the entire drive I open my door and climb out before the car conore hi and hi more frustrated with every second that passes I’m almost at the top of the stairs when he answers his phone

"What?" He snaps His voice is as cold as ice and I stu kidding me? Fine"

I step inside and slam the door shut as his car speeds away fro in anger There goes the gyain I can’t possibly sto to kill Dad when he discovers I’ym Maybe I’ll try the neenty-four hour one that has just opened up on thea block or two instead I drop onto the couch and shieldabout all the things he said toto decipher hiht

It has been a week since the night with Seth at Salsa’s I haven’t gone to the gy on me at least twice a day He tells ressive than usual Of course he bla dumb I shouldn’t care and I’m sure I don’t Blade hasn’t contacted me in over a week either and that’s helped me keep my head clear The only contact that I’ve had from the opposite sex besides work and everyday stuff was the card that Seth had jao It said:

Sorry, callthe bottolance at it I don’t really want to hear what he’s got to say I’m not in the mood for his ‘I care, but I don’t care’ with the ‘I want you, but I can’t let myself have you’ kind of speeches

I haven’t seen Selena since she left ym last week She says she’s been so busy ork and her dad is pissed at her because she showed up to work drunk Typical Selena

I wave goodbye to Mason who is now back to talking to me like I didn’t reject hiet to et there,it when it co this past week It’s my only release

I drive ho sounds better than a hot dinner and TV to ht now The frozen dinner is covered in a thin layer of freezer ice It’s been a while since I’ve had a microwavable dinner When I close the freezer door, a colorful photo catches er face is contorted into a frustrated scohile Moainsthiht and his dark green eyes are illumined by the flash I love this photo It reminds me of a tirew up and anted so for ourselves I never understood whyand I still don’t, but this photo helps me deal with it Chase and I are their life

I shove the dinner into the microwave and hit two minutes While I wait, rab my phone and drop into the couch It’s been a while and I et into a comfortable position I pull one of the blue, square pillows from my couch and onto my lap

"Hello, James residence" Mom answers

"Hey, mom"

"Olivia, honey!" She coos "How are you?"

"Good," I pull on a loose piece of string hanging fros?"

"Fine Your dad tells y, you know you always have a place here"

"I know, Mo, I’ve just been busy Have you heard fro the subject

"Oh, yes He’s in Pakistan on break right now He should be ho, are you coot about that "Yeah, I’ll be there"

"Good, good I’etables"

"Yu ot a lot of Gossip Girl to catch up on"

"Okay honey I’ll see you Sunday I love you"